夜の诗人

On my recent life

2007-11-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

And so I have been at my first real job for 3 months already. I have been adapting well, and by that, I am saying that I am quite happy working there. The people there are still nice, and the amount of work is reasonable and manageable.

Except that I have an exceptional knack of screwing even the most stable OS in the market. So restoring, reinstalling and rebooting is a day-to-day 'routine' for me. Doing such things are very time consuming.

The following comic is just ... self explanatory.

I am a groupie!!

2007-10-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

I went to 陈绮贞's concert last Sat 29th September.
SUPER HIGH!!!!

high 到站在椅子上 loh First time I go concert high until like that. Jitao kee-xiao liao haha
The security also lost the plot when she came down the stage for '女明星' , she was swarmed by fans in the aisles. She sort of got astonished and waved back when thambie and I shouted '女明星!!' at her. After she went back up the stage, many fans overcame the security and formed at the stage front's barricades. I only joined them at the last encore hehe

She encore-d 5 times! FIVE times! Where got concert got so many encores one?? haha super high lah. The polaroid all the way on top was taken while standing on top of the first row seats, during the 5th encore.

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Before going to the concert, I went to Museum of Toys right behind Raffles Hotel with Chiew Jingyi. Admission was pretty steep at $10, but it's a very niche concept museum anyway.

A scanned collage of polaroids.

Popeye toys.

Matchbox cars.

And many more toys also. Their collection of marbles are certainly more exotic than mine haha
There are five levels of toys for you to explore, each level with a different theme and style.

Although some dismiss toys as child's play, you could see how mindsets and and society-at-large influenced the type of toys being made. Some toys are plain innocent, some toys showed the generation's aspiration towards space explorations, while some toys are demeaning and racist-motivated.

You can spend about one to two hours there, and there's a cafe at the basement. Quite a cool place to be, to explore and to relive old-times-sake.

Beary like me

2007-09-26T22:44:00.000+08:00

Got these clips from Big Top . Sorts of mirror my quivering determination to lose weight hehe =P

By the way, 'Big Top' is about this circus where the animals and clowns talk to Pete. Pete also has a crush on this girl called Andrea.

Loser

2007-08-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

Adapted from http://www.gocomics.com/nonsequitur/ without permission.
Hope you don't mind, Mr Miller. Coz this is a great comic strip you are drawing.

Guocai's Thai Wedding

2007-06-21T20:24:00.000+08:00

Date: 15th to 17th June
Location: Bangkok / Nang Rong
Weather: Not-so-hot, humid

Got the invitation call from Guocai somewhere in March, which came as a pleasant surprise. I never knew the relationship was so steady, despite the distance they lived apart after he ended his attachment in Bangkok. Congrats Guocai! You are the first in RSP Youth!

Anyway, we practically spent the first and last day on the road, to and fro Nang Rong respectively, where Keng's (his wife) hometown was. Nang Rong is a 5-hr drive away Northeastern of Bangkok and about 200km away from Cambodia. According to Keng's father, that's the place where there's a casino. He added that Singapore is not bad too, coz we are going to have 2 instead of just one. (Is that a pat on the back?) Later, I find out with greater interest that we would be visiting structures from the Angkor Wat era.

Along with me as SG guests to his wedding are his parents and his younger sis, 1 army fren, 4 poly frens and Rosen. So Rosen and myself represented as his uni frens bah. Apparently with the exception of myself, nobody could tahan 5 hours on the road. We spent more time than 5 hrs in fact. 5 hours is chicken feet to me liaoz; I had tackled 12 hr buses before in Sichuan and in Malaysia.

When we reached Nang Rong, Guocai hosted us at a hotel which was more like a drive-by-and-stopever-for-the-night type of place. Coz every room had a parking lot of its own. But it was good, definitely at least 3-star quality.

We reached before sundown, and we were treated to dinner at Keng's grandmother's place.

In fact over here, I am showing you our second day's breakfast, which was 90% the same as the dinner. Dinner had an additional dish of curry which was the most 'ah-loi ah-loi' dish. Missing from the pictures was a braised whole pig-trotter, which I liked very much too. Only Zhenye (Guocai's army fren) and myself find the dishes edible, although not are considered very delectable to our Sg tasebuds. The rest of his frens are just adopting touch-n-go tactics only. Rosen is forever not hungry (on diet?). So you could say, Zhenye and myself would be the only people who would return to SG slightly heavier. The others depended pretty heavily on 7-11s.

The wedding started at 3am on the 2nd day. The first thing was prayers with the monks and we were 'not required' to be around. So we were invited to the post-breakfast festivities, which were very much similar in nature to what we have in SG.

The couple posing for pictures after the prayers. We reached in time to catch the last of the prayers. After this, Guocai had to leave the house for the 'procession'.

Everybody offering 'wedding gifts' to the grandmother. The person bringing the gifts must rest one knee on the grandmother's knee before presenting the gifts.

The road to the grandmother's place, decorated with pink balloons along the sides. The heart shaped balloons are a hit with the kids in the neighbourhood.

Not in the pictures were a really fun procession that I was involved in, after the prayers. I was dragged in to carry a young banana tree with Hudson (poly fren), who carried another one on his own. A pink cloth hanged from the two trees, and we led the procession to 'collect the bride', very much like what we do in SG. Following us were even more gifts and offerings. Zhenye, who was behind us, had to carry the pig head. For our effort, Hudson and I got 50 Baht in my angpao. Zhenye deservingly got 100Baht.

Anybody in the procession can lead a 'oh-yee-oh-yee-oh!', and everybody will shriek 'hyeeeeee' in response. It was really fun!

The Groom and Pei Yong, the official umbrella man. He also got 100Baht.
After the vampires were ready for the procession to come in, Guocai had to 'pay his way in' like what we in SG do at the girl's home entrance. But there is not only one door, almost every female formed pairs to hold a gold chain to act as a door. Luckily we are talking about baht and less greedy women (not found in SG).

Elders tying money to the couple's hands, which were tied together. A lot of elders sia ... (the process was very long, coz it involved money and a lot of strings attached)

A symbol of ties between 2 countries. (stable under huge wads of money?)

After the lengthy money tying ceremony, we went upstairs with the couple to their 'marriage room', where her grandmother prepared the beds for them. Maybe, it's like what we do with lotus seeds on the beds.

Old people having fun horsing around and showing the newbies how it should be done.

And them following suit.

And then there was a even lengthier process, where everybody (not just the elders) queue up and bless the couple, by pouring water over their hands, while saying words of blessings. Which of coz, I did too!

After blessing them, you get a wedding souvenir dished out by them (a yummy Thai woman and Guocai's sister, from L to R).

Remember that the balloons were a hit with the kids?

By the time the ceremonies were over, it was almost noon and we returned to hotel to rest. We were to go visit some ruins which were build in the Angkor Wat era and styles. They were only 30 minutes away from where we stayed. I was very excited to somehow revisit Angkor Wat, which I hold very high regards and admiration for.

It is called the Phanom Rung Historical Park. I find this park better restored and closer to how it might have really looked in the past. Whereas those in Angkor are more majestic and closely packed, at the same time, they are really ruined and 'eaten up' by the trees. I find those in Angkor more intriguing and attractive despite looking less restored. The most interesting fact about this Park is that it had a linga (male symbol) right in the middle of the East-West corridor, which in the months of March and October, will sit right inside the sunset if you look through the corridor. And in the months of April and September, sit inside the sunrise. (sunny side Up?)

After the afternoon trip, we rested a while in the hotel and prepared ourselves for the wedding banquet.

This was the setup, which seated 8 per table.

No Chang beer, but Leo instead.
The dinner was supposedly Chinese style; I found it to be pretty close. There were lots of speeches (in Thai) and one or two in English whenever someone could speak English. There was no yam-seng, which was a little disappointing. I kept thinking this banquet would be as fun and happy as the morning ceremonies. I thought it would be a party where everybody can't wait for dinner to be over and then gets high on alcohol and dance on the tables till sunrise. It turned out to be a tame affair, and most people left after having their fill. I guess this is simply a difference in culture bah. Maybe Thai weddings do not have the same emphasis that the wedding dinners we have.

And oh the wedding singer.
I think women who can sing well are hot. Rosen said that she (the wedding singer) would make it big in SG circuits if she could sing in Hokkien. She sang pretty well in English too, her voice is very rich, bassy and powerful.

To Sidetrack a bit: I tried to learn the Nang Rong (or Thai?) way of opening beer bottles. They can use one bottle against another to pry one open effortlessly. I succeeded in opening one, and left 3 teethmarks on my left hand on the second (obviously my last) attempt.

To Sidetrack a bit again: There was no Chang Beer, but there is Chang water.

And so, the wedding is over on the 2nd day of our trip. Nobody wants to drink anymore.

The third and last day (sunday) is spent on the roads and the jet plane. Except for 2 hrs shopping at FuturePark in Bangkok.

So that's how a Thai wedding looks like. Remember to congratulate Guocai when u guys have a chance yah!

Congratulations Mr and Mrs Guocai!
May the both of you be healthy and happy till the end of time!

What do you live for?

2007-06-06T20:33:00.000+08:00

It's been something I've been pondering about with no easy answer.

I also discover that, the same question can be rephrased as;

What is the meaning of life?
What are your life's goals?

It is also then I realised that I couldn't see too far or ever be sure of who/what/where I'd be in the future.

So I thought that my short term goal, is to save enough money to go travel Europe by the time I am 30 years old. But then what's after that? What's the motivation for you/me to keep on breathing? 难道我们都是吃饱了撑着而已吗？

And then I thought of the old aunties cleaning up dishes at the foodcourts. What do they look forward to in life?

I look around and then I observe the on goings of the regulars in the army. Some of them are really 混-ing a living ... it's like ... I don't see any ambition or what in them. Maybe it's their age, or maybe it's their resignation to fate and recognition of their own capabilities. So if work-career achievements are not on top of their priority, what else is? Staying alive? Seeing their children grow up?

So what do I want in life? To live comfortably in old age (by living precariously now)? What if it ends prematurely?

"Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy? " - Isaiah 55:2

Dying is still scary, isn't it? People become deeply religious on the brink of death. Since we all are going to die anyway, why only be religious at the very last bit?

Career Guidance for the Singaporean Undergraduate

2007-03-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

This post is meant for the typical Singaporean undergraduates, as already suggested by the title.
In this post, I would attempt to suggest some strategies for you take during your undergraduate days, so that you could be at your peak of your potential employability when u graduate. No matter where you you hail from; the respectable one at Jalan Bahar, the close follower at Buona Vista, the flashy newbie in town, or the 4th one near KAP, it should roughly apply to you. If you are going to start ur undergrad days soon, it is also good for you to read abt this. In fact, the earlier you read this in your undergrad days, the better.

If you are one of the few lucky ones who get to go overseas ... we are all jealous to the core of you and will find fault in you staying overseas or in coming back hahaha.

In general, there are 3 types of sgrean undergrad;
1) the mugger toads/study gods / scholars,
2) the average and somewhat balanced individuals
3) the goofer

Of coz, there would be outstanding individuals who can do extremely well in exams and still hold impt posts in ECAs. Kudos to them, they will be well sought after. There's nothing to complain about their ability, esp if you are not one of them (but u still try ur luck with voodoo dolls, I dun recommend it though).

The thing is, most of us are NOT outstanding individuals.
So there really is absolutely NO need for you to go gaga over their achievements are try to be like them, juggling sch work and ECA. The most important thing here, is for you to able to correctly gauge your true academic abilities. You must be frank and realistic to ask yourself, where do you stand academically?

If you are of Type 1s, and you can't understand why people join ECAs, go back to your books. You will be sought after by top tech companies, and you probably would only join a tech company and be a well paid lab rat.

If you are the Type 1s who can understand everything on earth using very short amt of time and hence have lots of spare time, go join a major club and run for a key post in the main comm, preferably the more glamourous posts. Your resume will be glittering like diamonds and gold. Banks would wanna grab you and make you feel on top of the world. In fact, you can join any companies' management trainee program easily (assuming you can speak well and it's a plus point to look good too). You probably dun need any advice from me anyway.

For the rest of us mere type 2 mortals who are serious about our future, BE REALISTIC. If you are the type who work your ass off and can only be second fiddles, don't get stressed up abt beating the gods in their game. Go join some ECAs and take up some main comm posts as well. Better be, take on different portfolios and make yourself look well balanced and experienced in all facets of leadership and management. Then, you can market yourself as a well balanced individual and studies are not everything in your life. Because you can never beat the type 1s in results, but you can still beat most of them in this aspect.

BUT, not all employers like these 'fancy' stuff. Especially tech companies and some snobbish banks. Ultimately, results and technical competencies are important to them. Pple in the above grp will have a hard time getting into management trainee positions. If you can afford to, send yourself to overseas exchange, or overseas internship. Find a good stepping stone by doing your internship at a big MNC. They do help boost your value a bit, if it matters to your prospect employers. My advice is, you gotta be choosy and apply to bigger companies so that your efforts won't go to waste. If you are dying to join a bank, chances are, you can only join them at a lower rung than the management trainees. No harm though, who knows you might be able to do better than them at work with better EQ.

If you are a laggard not by choice, you are probably in the wrong course, or you are simply the type who will need a lot of time to understand the same amt of things. I will advice that you should conc on your studies. You still may join ECAs but preferably not main comm positions that will suck more time from you. Like said before, ultimately results are still important. At least squeeze into honors classes. If you join a lot of ECAs and as a result u repeat modules, it's gonna look ugly. Dun take more time than recommended or needed, because the law of scarcity will eliminate you first in the game of employment (aka HR process). Gek past your undergrad days and hope for a good stepping stone for your first job. Dun be choosy and apply to all companies looking for positions that fit your abilities and interests. Gaining work experiences would be your differentiator from the others in the future.

Lastly if you are type 3, you are going to have it the hardest if you wanna have a choice. Or you can always be a financial planner, a mediocre teacher or any always-open job openings. They do pay well mind you. Actually I dun have much advice for these type of people. Sometimes I dunno wat are they up to. I hate it when they dun keep up during normal school time and keep bothering others to teach them or ask for notes and tutorial solutions near the exams. It feels worse when they dun repeat their subjects.

But life is so unpredictable.
And not necessarily fair.

After all these advice I have, you might still have a path of your job that you want to take for yourself. You might not like the life of a professional or typical management roles. You just want simple things in life. You definitely are not interested in the race that transforms the rest of us into rodents. You have my respect.

红眼症

2007-03-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

I had got quite a bit to say, but they all went blank the minute I opened this 'New Posts' page.

But I do apologize to the few loyal readers out there who still reads this blog and (probably) anticipating for the new posts. I'm sorry, I had been busy. Well, you guys should know, I am writing again because I have many real things that I gotta do, but I do not want to.

"犯贱之徒"

Alright, some of the thoughts are coming back. Money, commitments .... Here they go;

Have been thinking abt life after uni. The monies issue are really bothering me. Firstly would be my starting pay and the increments. Followed by me wondering of how do the real average Singaporeans cope with their pay.

My starting pay would be amongst the 'above average' range of the whole batch of cohort. By right I should have nothing to complain. I slogged 4 years of my life; I have had 5 and 6 day weeks for all 8 semesters, clocking at least 18 to 21 hours of lectures/tutorials/lab weekly, and had hellish lab assignments, I obviously DESERVE a better pay. Some more the training I got is in demand, so please, don't complain ok?

I just super buay tahan that an unproven uni's graduates who had it seemingly easy would be getting at least 1.5k sgd more than the most I can get, monthly. Some super lucky ones would be getting 10K sgd per month! Fresh grad! Their training is not even technical in nature! Someone who just can talk crap or come up with fancy stuff! Come on ... you stupid employers are over paying someone who struggle to be analytical and yet perfect in anallyretentive-acting. I can't stand it! I hope that industry of theirs will take a sharp downturn and these fresh grads will be sacked and they can only get a job that will befits them but at the same time, make them feel insulted. Don't get so smug ok.

Ok, I admit. I am just being 心理不平衡, sour grapes all that sort. I just can't stand it!

So the Ah Q in me decided to look away from the starting pay issue and absorb myself in self-fulfillment thinkings. Then I remembered that I still wanna backpack around the whole of Europe, and that will cost me around 20 to 30K SGD for a 3 month trip, I reckon (at least). In a conversation with KT and then later with Ede, I said I might be able to save 500bucks per month to this cause. Even so, it will take me 3 years and yet not hit my min target of 20K. I would be almost reaching 30 years old le leh like dat. If I got 'commitment' liaoz, how to go? I would also still need to pay off my study loan, probably pay for my sis' school fees, stay alive, pay tax, contribute to cpf, give my parents money ... etc So much so that I even began to doubt that I am even able to save 500bucks per month. There is absolutely no way that I could own a car.

Then I realized, there's hellalot of Sgreans who are filthy rich. I really wonder how could undergrads afford to drive if their laopeh laobu are not paying for the car. If their laopeh laobu can spare a car for their kids to drive, then their income confirm more than 5 digit liaoz ... I can't imagine that. My dad worked all his life, obtained diploma after diplomas and certs after certs and kept us all alive, with a roof of our own. Yet his pay at his previous job was still less than double of my possible starting pay.

Ede's right, you wouldn't get rich by working.
Or you can hope for a 10k starting pay. Kao!

By the way I've gotten contact lens. And my eyes get red everytime I take them off.

The RING

2007-02-04T17:39:00.000+08:00

When you have lived a quarter of a century, either you get married, or a lot of your friends are getting married. Sort of feihua right ... well, the law of large numbers dictate that there surely must be some pple who would have been a divorcee by 25. But that's not the point.

There are so many ads these days selling rings. Which ever manner they decide to market it, you will never get the idea that it is 'value-for-money', 'affordable' or 'for-the-masses'. Just like the way car manufacturers have you believe that driving their make means you have 'arrived' and 'made it', I get the vibes that jewelery makers want to think that you will only have enough love if you propose with their rings.

So, your love for your girl, should be

Troo Love, Destinnii

"Surely I am worthed more than that, right?"

So would the girl not marry you without Troo Love, or you are not the one in her Destinni? Surely no girls will admit that they are so shallow to be bought over by a small rock on a ring. But they will sulk or complain when they have to agree to anything else less. Then they will start ranting that they can't tell their grandchildren that grandpa gave her a super-duper large diamond for their wedding.

Girls, if you really love your man, you would even agree to marry him with a coke tab ring, a key ring, a telephone ring, any ring. Do you have to measure his love for you with money? Then it just means that you are only worth your vanity for a piece of rock, that is extracted for you to fund crimes against humanities. Looks like ultimately, you still need some amount of money to change your mind. So much for the male-bashing and branding them shallow.

Well we should change the world, starting with the man in the mirror.
I would not get married when I am 25 years old.

瓶颈

2007-01-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

I have reached a plateau in all aspects of my life. In Chinese, we will say, 我遇到了人生的一个瓶颈. Not too confident if I am correct about the translation though. Can someone give me some comments about it?

Obviously, I am still stuck with my FYP. Every small progress becomes very elating, but when reality sets in again, it is hardly any comforting anymore. This FYP is really, 难产. Although I am not going to let it 胎死腹中, but the completion and the grading, is going to bear heavily on the graces and kindness people are willing to give.

I squeezed out some time for a walkabout shoot in Tiong Bahru, finally, on the last sunny day last year. The walk up units are still very beautiful, the eateries are very 80s, but I couldn't get any mood to take photos. The 3 or 4 digicam shots didn't make it back to the pc. I didn't even rip the film box apart.

Tried to improve my swimming lap counts, but I still gave up at the same number. Tried the front crawl, but I can't grasp the right technique ... then it became crappily tiring.

Then of course there are the usual things that I want to but I can't do. Then I feel very 压抑. The fishing trip is still not feasible, I am not going to take my advanced diving, I don't have time to learn 2A. There also things which I wanna change and upgrade, all of which will need money. And I don't have much of it.

Read on Sunday's zbNow 著名作词人，姚谦，said that 恋爱前后的人创作力强，因为“刚开始或结束恋爱的人都是诗人，感触都很深。” Maybe that's partly why my life has been so uninspiring. And writing on this blog is painfully slow.

In fact, I am not sure if I want to write anymore. I do not know why am I writing. For whom am I writing it for? What value does it hold for me?

Built on what?

2006-12-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

What would my happiness be built on?

Would it be a lot of money?
Would it be on what I own? (and hence, owe?)
Would it be the envy of family and friends that makes me happy?

And then what worries me?
Would they be monetary in nature?
(Although I am damn concerned abt my FYP right now)
I think my health and my family members' health will.

Sigh ...都是钱在作祟，要不然，就是虚荣。有没有另一种的快乐与满足？

顺理成章

2006-12-13T22:06:00.001+08:00

我们都知道‘事事无绝对’，我们却反自然地渴望无论什么事都是‘预料之中事’。In fact 很多人生大小事都不是我们预料得到的。奖学金得主竟然盗用公款，大家认为最没有吸引力的同学，竟然抢先第一个结婚了，长辈看好的接棒人却栽了大跟斗，呼声很高的绝对Superstar参赛者复赛都过不了。。。等等等等。人生本来就无常，变来变去，跟看表演魔术一样有趣。

就算如此，还有很多人愿意硬硬把自己‘塑造’成一种典型，一种他自己欣赏的type，给大家一个完美的印象。他（当然，她也是）努力于多方面，可以是在事业上，他从事的活动、运动上，一心要完成这幅画，让大家欣赏。或许她就是希望和别人不一样，而去刻意把自己弄得与众不同。不是源于自然本性的一种不一样，而是打肿脸皮充胖子。

假如面子怎么打都不会肿得话，该怎么办？换来的，也只是自己痛。

当然有些人会觉得，这一切是值得的。失去自己，不用紧，别人看了喜欢就可以了，做未来雇佣者喜欢的type就可以了。这种牺牲依然符合经济效益，因为所得的益处，比失去的自己，还要多。

那跟主题‘顺理成章’又有什么关系呢？是没有关系。突然想到，写进去而已。

以前LJ有说过，他以为中学之后就初院，初院就army，上大学，找女朋友，找工，结婚生孩子。。。是再自然不过的。后来才知道，路不一定是这样走的，这一切不是理所当然的。

也对啦，谁不用努力，就可以上大学？谁不用小心经营，也能维持一段恋情？谁能不耍心机，也能得到利益呢？谁能老爸没钱也能买车？就算tyko，也不过几个。很多我们认为‘应该这样’顺理成章的东西，都是需要特别去营造环境，特地去制造机会，特意去争取，才换回来的。

真要一切顺其自然的话，就一定要有心理准备事情不会如愿，更难得会完美。

Moving house

2006-12-06T15:34:00.000+08:00

Dear friends, in case you've yet to hear of the reason why I am shifting the blog to where you are reading this now, here's why.

I was invited to a job interview, together with another nus undergrad. The invite did not hide the receipients of the email, and hence I knew there was at least this other person, who turned out to be this nus guy. Let's not discriminate nus by keep calling him the nus guy, we shall call him 'sicko' instead.

What happened was, sicko managed to get hold of my full name from the email. I did saw his name as well, but I just ignored it. Of coz there are bound to be 'competition' if it is an open recruitment exercise, right? So as per interview norm, I turned up at the place slightly early, and sicko is already there before. I am 30 minutes early, so he must have been there even earlier. Btw, i noticed he wore white socks ... quite an ugly sight when you wear formal.

Anyway, sicko struck up a conversation with me and of coz we talked. Then the sick part came when he said that he googled my name. I was stunned lah ... I mean if the potential employers said they googled me I would feel uncomfortable but wouldn't feel that shocked coz i have heard of it happening in the states before. But a fellow interviewee doing it ... is plain paranoid and totally uncalled for lah. Furthurmore, he did get some information online of me and found that I had a flickr site. Fair enough. But sicko said a scary thing; he said that between him and me, we are only seperated by 3 degrees.

It is wierd and scary lah ... when a 'competitor' tries to find out more about me. And maybe one day, things I have written or what may be used to discriminate against me. What if sicko is really sick and do something bad to me? I am not that zai for him to pick me off the face of the earth but who knows? He's sick.

That's it. I am moving my blog. I won't make it easy for him.

Economics is

2006-11-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

Economics is, a pack of half truths spun by capitalists and laisez faire governments that support them, to put them at continuously advantage over the poor and weak, as well as suppress those who have decent love for the humanity and the environment.

Woah ... quite a mouthful of a sweeping statement ...

I am not quite convinced of the arguments and the presentation of facts of economics lessons taught at JC and basic level in university. In fact it seems to put everything that is of disadvantage of greedy capitalists, as being evil and bad for the whole world.

Firstly, it potrays monopoly as evil. Because the capitalists are jealous that a monopolist can earn so much money. So they argue that monopoly is bad and competition is good, and they donate generously to political parties who then pass laws to outlaw it. Then they come up with intangible and abstract concepts like economic surplus, that disappears with monopoly and it is not efficient and bad bad bad bad bad bad. While there are some truths in exploitation and stuff, don't all big corporations bully and muscle consumers the same? It's not only that the monopolist are guilty. They also come up with a fictional perfect competition market. They say that in the end, everybody earns normal profit, so it's good for the people as nobody is fleecing the masses. Govts liked that theory. In reality, the capitalist would hide trade secrets, come up with copyrights intellectual property rights and only they are right to earn your money while everybody else is wrong. Of course they won't be satisfied with only earning normal profits.

Secondly, they say tax is dirty. It decreases economic surplus and distorts market signals bad bad bad bad bad. Even if taxes levied are supposed to help those who are made worsed off by the external negative externalities, we have seldom seen it happen before. If some kind govts have ever tried, it certainly was not the whole sum of tax. Also tax decreases economic production by a multiplying effect, bad bad bad bad bad. Drop the corporate tax! I would be happy to stay here and bring more investment and jobs to you and more donations to your party and stay in power with more votes in your next elections. Voila!

Thirdly, saving money is bad for the economy. Spend more money guys, buy our goods and services, part with your money and give them to me. It's for your good, your overall GDP will increase and everybody will eventually have a better life. John Keynes' wonderful theory that governments can easily do a little to help the economy by a lot was counter claimed that the economy can adjust back to its potential levels in the long run by automatic adjustments by the central bank's monetary policies. So now the officials can keep their fat pay check and let the central bank take the blame.

Free trade is also good, closed economies are bad bad bad bad bad. Call them freak names like autarky; 'aww what a turkey!'. Everybody would be better off with free trade? Who? The capitalists you mean? The money seldom trickled down to the masses. Didn't Uncle Sam learned that during the Depression? And free trade means the big bullies can officially come in and whoop all your small asses and carry on earn big money. It's opium war again, and again and again. Capitalists are jealous that they cannot earn the money the local companies are earning with their people. So they argue that 'everybody' would be better off with free trade.

Free economies are good, controlled economies are ... eeewww ... bad bad bad bad bad bad. The market knows best, what does the non-pro-capitalists govts know? They are stupid lah, look at ... those up north, in the eastern part of the world. They oppress, they don't respect human rights. Protest against them! They are against humanity! See? Free is good. Don't you like 'free' stuff too??

And oh, don't forget to teach your people the 'right' values. Anything that diminishes the capitalist's profit, is bad.

Ah ... began to write like the 7 habits post towards the end ... haa
Gotta cover my backside again at the end liaoz.

Disclaimer: The above message is not a criticism on any governments or its central banks . Any resemblance to governments dead or alive, in the past, present or in the future, is a pure coincidence and is deeply regretted. The owner of the blog is not qualified to give economics advice, readers are not encouraged to rely on his representation of economics. The owner is also not responsible for any disputes, misrepresentations and errors in the article.

Don't say never

2006-11-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

Life's sooo full of surprises and man is ever soo fickle.

Despite the efforts of marketing personnel and their focus groups, getting the right product still requires luck. And then you have the poor football managers, where some poor UK bloke lamented that the fans thinks that you are only as good as your last game. Politicians also have their share of difficulty coaxing votes, unless your idea of democracy is dictated by your own style.

My point is, people are so prone to changes. We observe that things change, other people change. Unknowingly, we ourselves change as well. But we still expect people to stick by what they have said or done before. 'He didn't used to be like that ... ' or 'She said she would love me forever' .. right? Well, they changed didn't they? How many times did we change our minds as well?

So don't ever proclaim, insistently, loudly, proudly, giving yourself a point of no return, that you will never ever do this. Unless of coz it's something understandable like 'I would never work for the devil'.

Don't declare you would never use MSN, and then you changed your mind.
Don't declare you would never blog. Blogging is for lonely losers, you said. Then you started a blog and today, your fren describes you as 'blogging furiously'.
Don't say you would never date a person like her.
Don't say you would never do such a thing if you were that person. You are not in his shoes, you've never been.
Don't say you would never get married. Don't say you would never have kids.
Don't say you would never speed. Don't say you wouldn't drink and drive. Don't say you wouldn't smoke.
Don't say you would never watch a horror movie despite it being an invitation by a hot date.

Because you wouldn't know for sure. Because your circumstances could be different already. Still, don't let your past actions or words bind you so tightly. Consistency and predictability is not a common trait of the human species. Frankly speaking, there's no need for you to be exceptional, unless you are aiming to be exceptional, then, there's a lot for you to cover. Till you reach your goals, don't say never.

'P-O-W-E-R !!!!'

2006-11-05T19:46:00.000+08:00

Like Edeimar, I am good at keeping myself occupied with many stuff other than studying, especially during exams. Just that it's getting really odd for me ... coz I actually have got nothing to do ... when I am not studying. It's more like .. I dun wanna do anything at all.

And then I try to surf the net. Then it bored me.
Then I tried to read forums, and that bored me too. I have been reading this and that when I studied for my exams. It dawned on me that I am very dependent on my eyes for both work n entertainment. So .. gotta take care of them, only one pair in a lifetime.

I went on to check out diving stuff and pics ... and going gaga over them and hoping to get my advanced cert once the monsoon lifts. I also went to look at how I can tie better lines and hooks for the fishing trip I have looking forward for soo long. I also read cycling mags again, and photog mags as well. I want to buy my cycling helmet. I want to get a DSLR or a better film body and stick to film. And then I contemplated about getting my class 2A.

Each time I talk about taking class 2a with friends, incidentally those who drive, they simply relate a motocycle accident they recently saw. Sianz, I get it. The thing is, I am not a speed demon, but sometimes it's the others' fault and you end up coming out of the collision worsed off. I not that rich and I wanna get around the island without taking our first class public transport. Power-lusty me wun be satiated with the Vespas or kupkias or phantoms with class2b, especially after I have tasted Super4's vtec power. I still wish to get on the R1, twist its throttles and shout 'P-O-W-E-R !!!!' ala Jeremy Clarkson on Top Gear.

Haiz ... soo many wants, soo little money and time. Soo greedy for things that are not meant to be mine.

7 Habits of Highly Effective Undergrads

2006-10-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

Just caught a talkshow about scholarships awards, awarders and its awardees on Ch U. I don't know how to comment about it since I don't think any of the 'scholarship givers' will stop looking at grades, no matter what. And I somewhat do agree that bright kids do stay bright, whether they succeed is another matter, but who can say for sure? As for today, after many years past scholarship awarding age, I still don't know what I want to do in life. How could I possibly have been so sure back then? In fact, I am not sure if I am right about going into engineering.

Anyway, I shouldn't harbour anymore pipedreams about getting scholarships. A second fiddle has too much to overcome. Perhaps I only have myself to blame. I do not have a good testimonial to give you a tip or two, but my observations are very accurate. Let me tell you about 7 Habits of Highly Effective Undergrads. If you still have time to make up for, this would be greatly helpful to you:

To apply what I have learnt in law modules and risk and insurance modules, let me cover my own backside:

Disclaimer: Results vary with different individuals. The blogger is not responsible for any hurt or loses, howsoever caused, by readers who follows the above crap.

My life, so far

2006-10-07T17:03:00.000+08:00

Had been so full to the brim with work, but I had so much time off for fun that I had no right to say that I have no life. I just came back from diving 2 weeks ago, went Jo's bday chalet last weekend, and went Oktoberfest organised by ntu's german soc yesterday. I had something happening to do these past 3 weekends. Just that during weekdays, I feel miserable with so much work at hand. Everyday I am just so jam packed, lah.

Went diving, remember? I just love this solo pic =P

And then I saw this Garfield comic, and then i remembered how hawx used to scratch my back when we were still in jc. I even had a x,y coordinate system of my back for him, so I could direct him to where to scratch. Sort of sounds gay .. but we are not.

Also, 梁静茹's latest album is out. Getting my copy soon =)

Employment woes

2006-09-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

I've yet to graduate, and I'm already feeling the heat and the desperation I would certainly face when I finally do so after spending 4 years in NTU. I do not need a job urgently, and it might not be wise to agree to join a company before I get to learn more about what's on the table for me. But then again ... it's more likely that I'd be on the table for the employers instead. It's (sadly) an employer's market.

I am really curious why are they going all out so early in the academic year to recruit the coming batch of graduates. They are really drawing hordes of suckers (like me), of whom, despite knowing that the companies are only reserving the cream of the crop for themselves even before they hit the job market, and not targeting mediocre laggards like myself. Still the suckers (like me), still tell themselves (myself) that, "If I don't try, I will never get the job." Someone is spoiling the employers really badly; they can actually come in and state what their demands. Only one of the employers actually stated what starting pay they are offering. The rest just offered 'competitive rates', which in job market speak, I presume means, paying the least for the most.

Then when I survey the attendees of these recruitment talks, they are full of foreigners and uber smart people who can probably choose offers from many companies. The field is soooo competitive! And as employers list their demands, I feel even more inadequate ... to the point that I think I would never be employed. It seems nobody wants anybody with honors of 2nd Lower, and lower. I would never know the right skills, have the right characteristics, or have the drive in the perfect employee they would prefer to hire. If there was even a slight fit, I would have to 自我吹捧 to make it sound like something great. It was never that great, but if I would to be truthful, then the bugger who made doing-nothing-at-a-defunct-committee-post or screwed-up-organised-activities a big thing would pip me to advance to the next stage.

Are employers similar to woman? Do they prefer the lies and the fancyful bits to the sincere and truthful people? Or are they merely exercising their market right to pick the best, like choosing men based on their income and looks? Sigh ... I am going to get brickbats over these comments if I were to voice them out publicly. I just feel that way, it may not be true, I also hope it isn't.

There is also the networking skills talk that I went to. The speaker was very frank, and I liked that. She acknowledged that in networking sessions, there's always an agenda to make use, and be made use of. Well, if she packaged it nicely and tried to pass it off trying to tell us that it isn't fake or what, I would have loathed her. So the angmohs aren't much better when they despised the Chinese ways of 关系. Hypocrites.

Well ... I've just gotta learn then. I just realised that learning has never been easy. I worked my ass off for my O Levels and A Levels and yeah, that's all I've got for my rear end I persevered to pass all my modules in the previous 3 years in uni, my driving, my riding and soon, diving. Really ... no pain, no gain. I kept wondering if I made an astute choice to go learn diving once I started learning. The things to remember, the fears and the difficulty of it all ... luckily the money that I've already paid and the pride factor kept me in the course.

I miss Beijing

2006-09-10T19:15:00.000+08:00

我好想念北京。

我也很想念五道口的韩国餐；要脱鞋才可以进去的那一间小店。我现在还不懂那几次点的是什么菜，单面的菜单上面写的都是韩国字，又一张照片都没有，服务员的国语也不灵通。简直就是到了韩国一样！只看得懂上面的‘大中小’字样，就跟服务员指指点点，菜单上的全部三道菜就上来了。那里可以忘了美好的烧酒？爱死它了。每一次喝烧酒都刚巧很开心，留下美好的回忆，所以也把烧酒和好时光联想在一起了。

在北京的时候，我基本上处在半放假/半做工状态。做工的情形大概不必多介绍了，也说过很多遍了。总之，有忙得不可开交的时候，也有‘做无’的时候。有谁的实习生活不是这样的？而且每一个礼拜都在策划下一个周末要到哪里玩。北京大概都玩完了之后，又再策划到中国其他地方去玩。如果应征面试的时候，面试者问我在北京到底学到了些什么，真的得想一想才可以回答。

每周到北大上课也只不过是形式上的需要，而且到学校上课是一点压力也没有；这真的还是头一招。听不听没多大所谓，反正对我在南大的成绩没什么影响。不过在这样的‘环境’下，反而引起我对那些学科的兴趣。虽然交上6篇短文对于一些人是一种无理的要求，对我来说，却是一种。。怎么说呢。。反正获益的人是我。我就是这么犯贱。

生活没有太大的挂虑，对在新加坡的家人、朋友是有些挂念；那时甚至还有一个值得牵挂的新加坡友人。总是有足够的人民币花，不必天天省这个省那个，偶尔偶尔自我控制就好了。新币就不一样了，新币就是现实。

嗨，又回到了现实。

全时间学生，真的是要了我全部的时间。日间又要上课，晚间又要自习，课与课之间的空挡都卖给了毕业作业。在北京的时候，离开了办公室就是属于自己的时间。煮晚餐，看光碟，打电动，喝喝酒，看世界杯，上网查看旅游信息。。。等等有啊没有的。除了要交实习报告和6篇短文时疯狂了一阵子之外，过的日子算是好的。

当然，我也是选择性的想念。所以，回忆里的北京总是美好的。毕竟一个人的记忆里，必然有好的回忆，也有不好的回忆。

看金三顺喝烧酒，我好羡慕哦。至今，我在新加坡还没有碰见哪里有卖同一款的韩国‘真露’烧酒。有的话，要告诉我哦！

Wonderwall

2006-09-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

Well ... this is a picture of my wall! Tahtah!

The world map that featured on my hall room's wall did not make it to the wall at all. It was too big, and not of very high aesthetic value =P

The 4 'paintings' lining from top to bottom on the right forms a series of the sceneries of 大理, namely; 风、花、雪、月. I was so smittened by that series but I resisted buying the first set which I had set my eyes on. It was twice the size, and painfully hard to bring it back to SG. So after a very very very long consideration, I didn't buy it. But we managed to see similar stuff in other shops and also these smaller ones which I eventually bought. I just loved the colors, and I wanted to make up for the 'dui-ness' for missing out on the art work that held my heart captive.

Then the light brown square frame holds a drawing by a HK artist, of his interpretation of the Victoria Harbour scene. I bought it at Stanley Market (赤柱) many years back during a trip to Hong Kong. It was my first overseas trip, first time planned by myself, first time funded by my own money saved from temp-ing, and first time without my parents going as well.

The biggest item on the wall is the only thing I made myself. I collected the liquor labels of the beers I've drank while I was in China. It wasn't all beer labels; there was also a korean soju which I totally love. Everytime (ok ... only thrice) I drank it, I was always very happy. It reminded me of the good times I had in Beijing. The labels weren't exhausive, but very representative, usually of sentimental values. Tsingdao wasn't on it, coz I have never succeeded in tearing them off the bottle ... and the only one that succeeded .. was slot in the photo album and only discovered after I completed the art work.

In case you are wondering, right below the picture where it ends, is my bed.

想她

2006-08-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

想她，因为我们之间不能再有别的联接词。
我不能再‘喜欢’她、‘爱’她、‘关心’她。
她找到了她的他，现在应该还在恋爱蜜月。我又怎么能说一些，让她懊恼的话呢？我也不必自作多情了。

想她是临睡的习惯
想她那双明亮无邪的眼睛
想她对我可爱
想她的发顶
想她句句结尾里的‘好不好？’
想她在路上行走时，悄悄地从我的左边溜到右边，害我以为把她丢失在人群里了。
想她为什么不把消息告知我
想她应该从来不对我没有感觉过
想她现在应该很快乐吧？

想她干嘛？
想她我的心就痛

嗨，想不通，想不伤心也难。

Adapted from bayderophobia: 失眠夜散文集

Why Do I give my seats up for the elderly?

2006-08-29T19:37:00.000+08:00

Because,

1. They need it more than me.

If I can tahan the Beijing subway rush and the Shanghai MTR madness, probably I can make do with standing for just a few stops before I alight.
2. To impress the girl sitting opposite.

In case she can't see the big heart of the big guy (me lah me lah) lying under the big chunk of fats.
3. So that when I vacate my seat, a total of 3 people can sit.

Why is it that people don't sit beside me? So squeezy meh?

Xianz ... If you all don't believe me, you guys can be more observant when you guys take the MRT or the buses. Or you guys can ask all the big people if it happens to them as well. If it doesn't, then it is just me liaoz ... It's good to have more space to myself but .. it's really odd to see people standing right in front of me when there are still spaces beside me. I just felt 排挤-ed, lah.

So low morale lately, even Jon Arbuckle got himself a 'steady' liaoz ... I always thought I can seek solace in the fact that there's still Jon who's also a loser.

Good thing I've done today: I skipped a loser lecturer's lecture!

它终于得走了, 她也不等了

2006-08-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

Last september, my beloved pencil box showed signs of terminal illness, and heaven beckoned it to adhere to it's long overdue exist-by date.

I put it on life-support, it lasted another 9 months and then died 2 days ago. The zip and the pencil box opening had a painful divorce, citing irreconcilable differences, ending their otherwise amicable marriage of 8 years. I had that pencil box since I was in sec 3 or sec 4, there's really a lot of sentimental value attached to it.

When it's time to go, it's time to go. Goodbye, to a part of me.
有的人说不清哪里好，但就是谁都替代不了。
So I got my mother to cut up my old pair of jeans, and used the denim material to make another pencil box of similar dimensions. But it's just not the same, lah.

Sigh ... juz got more bad news while writing the obituary above.
她也不等了

Haizz ...

叫我第一名

2006-08-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

叫我第一名

你说我这款人可以冲啥
你说我最好丢进垃圾车
你说我这款人可以冲啥
电影看了吃宵夜搁去唱歌
吃饱困困饱吃
你卖想这多说到七桃我就走
有什么代志一定要计较输赢

啦...爱玩才会赢
啦...谁人倘跟我拼
啦...你问我叫啥米名
啦...叫我第一名

你说晚时倒垃圾早时堵车你说寒天太寒热天太热
你说甲意的人无甲意你啦你说人生的路那会这陡

夜的诗人：“

I never thought I would posting in the same manner as before again. But it seems that the more that I try to avoid something, the more they will come and haunt me. Well, I don't have much creativity to start with anyway.

Been feeling in the pits lately ... like nothing to look forward to. And then it's now the time to guess if I have any real chances at getting good honours ... It's then I realise that I might even have to scrape to get 3rd Class, if I ever get any. Xianz, jitao xianz. Really cannot screw up FYP liaoz.

Sigh. Think I am a victim of my 'pedigree'. Everybody says, 'you are from hwachong leh, must be very zai one, loh' and things like 'don't worry lah, you hwachong one, surely 2nd upper and above one lah.' Aiyoh ... jitao not helpful at all. I had always been a straggler, just short of being capable of pulling the school's stellar grades down. My peers are always winning this award that award, scholarships after scholarships ... sigh ... it's tough living amongst the gods unless you are one yourself.

Naturally, I am always second fiddle to someone else.

I am never the best in anything. I have never came in first in any competition sans the boliao interblock carrom, nor topped any class for any subject. I can't identify what am I good at, I still don't know if I am better in mathematics or economics. I know I suck at maths but I am not exactly tops in economics either. Whatever that I used to consider as my strength, always pale in comparision quickly. I can always think of somebody who is better than me. I can't write publishable materials, I can't take award-winning pictures, I can't play performance grade guitar, I can't seem to beat anybody at any game, I can't get the girl I like, I can't manage people, I can't lead small organisations, I can't I can't I can't.

So loser. haiz
I am seldom alone, but I feel so lonely sometimes.

Then I see young people who are their own bosses, striking out on their own and making it. Of coz some don't do as well, but I still envy their courage, their strong survival skills and their creativity. They are around my age and they have already stretched their wings and fly. I am still stuck here with no credentials and anything to be proud of under my belt.

I want to be the best in something tangible. I want to be Number #1 in something significant. I want to be an expert in whatever field I am in. I don't want to be a Jack of many trades and master of none.

Am I asking too much of myself? Am I too greedy? I feel like shit.

I don't know what to say if they ask, "What are your strengths?" during job interviews.

”

Long time never been here

2006-08-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

Yah ... it's been a long long time

Gai xiao you all a nice local artist's site. He draws very nice comics and I really like them a lot. I quite like the following strip that he drew some time ago.

http://hutdugaikarsui.blogspot.com/2006/06/sleep.html

Had the dubious honour of sleeping with many people in the last trip, and they can testify that I have the symptoms of sleep apnea. Anyway, this strip really .. touches a sore spot somewhere below the right torso.

Everytime You Go Away

2006-02-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

Everytime You Go Away - Paul Young

Hey! If we can solve any problem
Then why do we lose so many tears
Oh, and so you go again
When the leading man appears

Always the same thing
Can't you see, we've got everything goin' on and on and on

Every time you go away
you take a piece of me with you
Every time you go away
you take a piece of me with you

Go on and go free, yeah
Maybe you're too close to see
I can feel your body move
It doesn't mean that much to me

I can't go on sayin' the same thing
Just can't you see, we've got everything
do you even know we know

Every time you go away
you take a piece of me with you, oh
Every time you go away
you take a piece of me with you

I can't go on sayin' the same thing
'Cause baby, can't ya see, we've got everything goin' on and on and on

Every time you go away
you take a piece of me with you
Every time you go away
you take a piece of me with you

夜的诗人：“
... ...
”

爱是你眼里的一首情歌

2006-02-02T10:07:00.000+08:00

<爱是你眼里的一首情歌> 词：詹辉振曲：柯贵民原唱:柯贵民

总是不经意地想起
你喜欢哼的那首歌曲
一样温柔的音
依旧牵动我的心

我曾寻寻觅觅
想在文字里寻找爱情
才发现最美的诗句
原来都在你眸里

爱是你眼里的一首情歌
轻洋着飘逸旋律
让我不知不觉地陶醉在
你缠绕的深情

爱是你眼里的一首情歌
轻拨动我的心弦
让我不由自主地深爱着你

夜的诗人：“

When I first heard this song on air eons ago, it had the mark of 新谣 stamped all over it. I loved the guitar and vocal only combination, which gave the song a very pure and sedating effect. Frill-less and unpolished, the only recorded-on-radio and never released 柯贵民 version is the best way (in my opinion) this song could ever be performed.

I had a cassette Walkman back then. Besides using it to listen to Faye Wong (which had the 'lup-zha-gor' song, borrowed from ChengHwa) and Boyzone, I also used it to record my favourite songs that was being played on radio. Hmm, it was the best cassette Walkman that was ever made; it can do a repeat song ala CD tracks. Otherwise, waiting by the radio and recording on cue still remains as one fo the hardest thing to do. Of course, this is one of the many songs which I pulled off air onto tape.

I managed to figure out most of the lyrics by listening to it over and over again using the song repeat function. I wrote it down on a scrap paper and pinned it unto my corkboard, and it is still there. One line of the chorus was pretty slurred and I came up with a few versions of what I thought it was. Luckily, the one I settled on was the correct one.

You could see, I had different interpretations of the earlier lines as well.

Whichever the case, I like this song a lot and still very much prefer the original cover of it. Do give credit dues to the song writers of this song =)

”

爱情的模样

2006-01-24T20:53:00.000+08:00

<爱情的模样> 五月天

你是巨大的海洋
我是雨下在你身上
我失去了自己的形状
我看到远方爱情的模样

曾经孤单的旁徨
曾经相信曾经失望
你穿过了重重的迷惘
那爱的慌张终于要解放

你是谁? 教我狂恋
教我勇敢地挑战全世界
在一样的身体里面一样有爱与被爱的感觉

我爱谁已无所谓
没有谁能将爱情划界限
在一样的身体里面迷样的魔力却是更强烈

星星在夜空中闪亮
星空下我不停流浪
只剩我无知的奔忙
因为你眼光都化成了荒凉

这世界全部的漂亮
不过你的可爱模样
你让我举双手投降
跨出了城墙长出了翅膀

夜的诗人：“

It's tough to be jobless, and low on cash at the same time. Worsed still, with lots of dinners to join up with, lotsa movies to catch, rolls of film to develop. Thank goodness got some sort of reimbursements in the form of angpaos coming soon. While I enjoy having free time to do whatever I want to, when I have too much of it, I start to feel sorry about it. Everybody else I know have already proceeded with their new year and long back to normalcy. I feel like I am still threading where water is deep, but the pool edge is still some distance away, with everybody else out of it, showered, changed and left.

On a few occasions while I was out of home these days, I can't help but feel the exuberance of youth is already leaving furthur and furthur from me. I feel especially so when I see sec and jc students in their school uniforms, when I see childish groups of guys and spasticated attention seeking girls, when I see sports jocks chilling at coffee shops and hawker centres. I start to worry, I start to wonder who should I vote for this year, I hope Budget 06 will give me one more angpao, I am no longer indifferent (although at times I think, I am so hardened that I couldn't give a damn), I consider my obligations, and I can only attend more weddings and funerals.

At times I considered various stages of life as mandatory; puberty, studies, work, marriage, death. Then I realised, only the 4th could elude me, and probably would. I am so out of touch with the nubiles' generation, the girls of my age have moved on, and I have never been in the selection pool for the older jiejies anyway. Even bugger '陈烂嘴' is attached. Funny ah? Sometimes I wonder if I need to lie or hide some undesirable traits and lose lotsa weight in order to succeed in the dating game; I always thought women hate liars and looks doesn't matter to them. Maybe I heard them wrong, or to paraphase a irritating credit card ad; I 'just don't get it'.

”

其实你不懂我的心

2006-01-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

<其实你不懂我的心> 曲:童安格词:陈桂珠原唱:童安格

你说我像云捉摸不定
其实你不懂我的心
你说我像梦忽远又忽近
其实你不懂我的心
你说我像谜总是看不清
其实我永不在乎掩藏真心

怕自己不能负担对你的深情
所以不敢靠你太近
你说要远行暗地里伤心
不让你看到哭泣的眼睛

你说我像云捉摸不定
其实你不懂我的心
你说我像梦忽远又忽近
其实你不懂我的心

你说我像谜总是看不清
其实我永不在乎掩藏真心

怕自己不能负担对你的深情
所以不敢靠你太近
你说要远行暗地里伤心
不让你看到哭泣的眼睛

夜的诗人：“

Whilst doing nothing much important, I had the chance to talk to many people online, and much time to read other people's blogs and their tags. I realised, there is an inherent systemic problem which exists, that somehow influences women to think that their men either don't understand them, or their men don't care enough for them. Are women asking too much? On my end ... sometimes I felt misunderstood. Sometimes only.

Heard something ironic on TV matchmaking programme. This is what the guy said, and he really needs to be understood;
"I am looking for someone with a good height and figure. But looks are not important .. .. .." blah blah blah

Me and my sis went, "???!" So what does he want then? Admit it if you are shallow dude. Let's face it, most men are. The rest are desperate, gay or held to ransom.

从前，有一个贱人和朋友一起买拖鞋。店里面有两种款式供选择；一款要＄2，另一款则要价＄8。朋友犹豫不决，贱人就说，‘＄8那双，可以买4双＄2的拖鞋leh。’ 朋友于是买了那双＄2的拖鞋。

有一天，贱人的拖鞋也报销了。贱人到了同一间店买拖鞋，店里还是有两种款式供选择。贱人xibei gian＄2的拖鞋，却买了那双＄8的拖鞋。结果，贱人dio朋友gan，‘犯贱’。

贱人就是老衲，俺啦。

”

合影留念

2006-01-16T21:03:00.000+08:00

<合影留念> 张宇

我盯着墙上那张大照片
突然间嫌它有点太刺眼
他站在你的身边搂着你的双肩
笑得太腻太甜
一切安排巧妙又阴险
太阴险

看似很怜香惜玉的画面
其实是把你放在悬崖边
你不再穿高跟鞋脚趾抓紧地面匍匐在第一线
气质跟你灵魂说再见
说再见

想问你爱他哪一点图他那一点
不会赚钱嘴不甜?
难道说平凡无奇也算优点?
想问你爱他哪一点图他哪一点
眼大无神瞌睡脸
怎么会跟他合影留念?

夜的诗人“

Have been facing some sort of bottleneck when it comes to blogging, I guess the same must be happening to hawx, eeky etc. And it seems that I have managed to keep myself more occupied than I could ever be if I am having regular lessons back in uni. Well, I shouldn't be complaining, at least I am not rotting at home, not yet.

Took up photography seriously lately and quickly realised I had effectively walked down onto a slippery slope. Photography can be super expensive, and relatively inexpensive alternatives are very time consuming, and the costs catch up eventually. Furthur revelations showed that I can also be a 'carrot head' back at home. I paid twice for everything except for the camera itself, which can never be twice its price since it is 2nd hand. I feel angry and taken advantage of but have only myself to blame for not doing more legwork and bargaining. Some people are simply 犯贱，gotta learn it the hard way.

Now for a short poetry based on true story:

A picture paints a thousand words, it can also evoke emotions that is like a double edged sword.

”

阴天

2006-01-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

<阴天> 原唱：莫文蔚词:李宗盛

阴天在不开灯的房间
当所有思绪都一点一点沉淀
爱情究竟是精神鸦片
还是世纪末的无聊消遣?

香烟氲成一滩光圈
和他的照片就摆在手边
傻傻两个人笑的多甜

开始总是分分钟都妙不可言
谁都以为热情它永不会减
除了激情褪去后的那一点点倦

也许像谁说过的贪得无厌
活该应了谁说过的不知检点
总之那几年感性赢了理性的那一面?

阴天在不开灯的房间
当所有思绪都一点一点沉淀
爱恨情欲里的疑点盲点
呼之欲出那么明显

女孩通通让到一边
这歌里的细微末节就算都体验
若想真明白真要好几年

回想那一天喧闹的喜宴
耳边响起的究竟是序曲或完结篇?
感情不就是你情我愿
最好爱恨扯平两不相欠
感情说穿了一人挣脱的一人去捡

男人大可不必百口莫辩
女人实在无须楚楚可怜
总之那几年你们两个没有缘

夜的诗人：“

这几天的雨，有够讨人厌的。

不下雨的时候，又天黑黑、阴阴的，想出去又怕随时会下雨。呆在家里，骑脚车也不成，踢球也不能，看老天脸色的lomocam也拍不了。房间窗口是开了又关，关了又开。

以上夜的诗人喜欢的一首歌，再也没有人能像莫文蔚诠释的那么好。没有功夫，很容易就变成像在念经一样。总觉得李宗盛真的是鬼才一个。这个作品入骨、真实、又表现无奈，警戒所有对爱情充满着梦幻憧憬的人，不要期望太大，安慰所有对爱情失望的人，爱情本来就是这个样子，不必太过执著。

这次北上，一去就是半年，什么都要去适应。烟客要换一换口味，我的精神鸦片可能也要戒一戒，早晨没有咖啡，日子怎么过？

”

What Are You Doing New Year's Eve?

2005-12-29T00:45:00.000+08:00

What Are You Doing New Year's Eve? - Diana Krall

When the bells all ring and the horns all blow
And the couples we know are fondly kissing.
Will I be with you or will I be among the missing?

Maybe it's much too early in the game
Ooh, but I thought I'd ask you just the same
What are you doing New Year's
New Year's eve?

Wonder whose arms will hold you good and tight
When it's exactly twelve o'clock that night
Welcoming in the New Year
New Year's eve

Maybe I'm crazy to suppose
I'd ever be the one you chose
Out of a thousand invitations
You received

Ooh, but in case I stand one little chance
Here comes the jackpot question in advance:
What are you doing New Year's
New Year's Eve?

夜的诗人：“

A lot pple used to say to me, it's great to have the whole world celebrating and counting down on my birthday. The thing is, they are celebrating the departure of the day, and not the reverse. But well, at least the mood is there =P And I'm pretty pleased that a lot of pple do remember becoz it is on a special day, although I would hope that it is becoz my 人缘.

As the years go by, I've 'collected' the names of people who share the same birthday as me. Sadly, I can only remember that no worthy celebrities or famous pple share same birthday as me. To date, I know I share it with the 'year rep', my dearest Reng and Kelvin from BlkD. Reng is 同年同月同日生 as me, whereas 'year rep' and Kelvin are 同年同月同日生 a year before Reng and myself.

A check with the 'year rep' also revealed that he had no plans for NYE yet. Met Kelvin on bus 199 a few days back and we've both got early congrats from each other, knowing we probably wouldn't meet each other again. Reng is the 'special one', I will call him on the phone on NYE itself, although I think we might not meet up as well. We usually call each other on that day instead.

Should I nua at home? Or should I go out and play? Play wat? With who? Who should I spend it with?

”

敲敲我的头

2005-12-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

<敲敲我的头> 彭嘉慧

敲敲敲敲我的头
敲敲敲敲我的头
看看它是不是有用
最近二十个年头
到底做了什么?
你快告诉我

敲敲敲敲我的头
敲敲敲敲我的头
看看有没有进步很多?
一个不小心掉进生活的漩涡
全部都搞错

敲敲敲敲他的头
敲敲敲敲他的头
看看它打算活多久
高兴就好好的过不高兴就闪躲
就是这种念头

其实我很想飞
可是找不到一片天我想喝一杯
只是我没有没有胆量醉
其实我真的美为什么没有人发现?
我好像找人陪
连人都看不见连人都看不见

他们摸摸他的头
他们摸摸他的头问它会不会难过
高兴就好好的过不高兴就闪躲
你还在乎什么?

(敲敲敲敲我的头) 你敲敲我的头
(敲敲敲敲我的头看看它是不是有用) 啊...
(如果没有用我还能做什么? 你快告诉我)我还能做什么? 你快告诉我

(敲敲敲敲他的头)你敲敲他的头
(敲敲敲敲他的头看看我的头会不会痛) 喔! 我真的很痛
(他打了我的头我敲了你的头)我敲了你的头
(反正都是头)反正都是头
丫头!

夜的诗人：“

The end of the year always brings mixed feelings. The tirade of Christmas songs everywhere you goes makes you think that you are in somewhere that snows (which obviously will never ever happen in SG). Then the auld lang syne reminds you that another year is going to pass by just like that. The joy of celebrating birthdays disappear quickly since the new academic year arrives almost immediately (esp in pre-uni days). And then the scary part comes, you suddenly ask yourself, what have I done for the whole of this year? Was it yet another wasteful year?

Shopped with SHQ on Christmas Eve for a 2006 organiser, because he was complaining that he has no date on Christmas Eve. Well ... so did I, although I am not feeling as miserable or what, since I am so used to be without dates anyway. It took me quite a while to realise that my 2005 Keny organiser is ending already and I'd need a new one for the new year. And that realisation, prompted me to also look back into my '05 organiser, to see what I have done for the past year.

Let's start from the beginning of '05 (we will skip minor events)
Jan'05

Feb'05

Mar'05

April'05

only exams
May'05

June'05

July'05

Aug'05

Sep'05

Oct'05

Nov'05

Dec'05

For a large part of the first half of the year, I am still chained to eca commitments (okok .. I know it is called cca now). After the handing over, I dropped all obligations and felt the liberation I had long missed. I could now join more outdoor activities or do stuff like part timing. I need not reserve Thursday evenings and be there for them all the time. I can persue my own interests and the stuff I can only do before I need to go out into the workforce and start servicing debts. You could say I have lived more meaningfully in the upper half, but have enjoyed myself more in the lower half of the year. I have also made more friends in NTU this year than the previous years in NTU. Although petty interpersonal issues bugged me near the end of the year, 2005 had been memorable.

In fact, as my mood brightens up, I am seriously considering going to the Countdown Party at Mt Faber. Got one of my favourite Project Superstar contestant Sin Huey, a fabulous view, fireworks and a chance to try my hand at night and fireworks photography. I just don't know how should I get home from there after the brainless mass decrement of time. And I don't feel like paying haha

”

圣诞夜惊魂

2005-12-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

<圣诞夜惊魂> 五月天

气氛突然就变得有点冷我真笨
说起话像雪人制造浪漫变成耍冷

朋友都说我长的很诚恳又天真
傻笑傻到出神说完再见突然你就惦起脚跟

你的吻我的惊魂故事就突然发生
你笑着我说怎么可能
原来世上真的有圣诞老人

日子过得闷闷闷闷闷闷闷七个闷
一周七天都闷
爱情快来解救灵魂

感谢有你让平淡的世界加了分
你的一个眼神我的心中千军万马勇敢狂奔

你的吻我的惊魂故事就突然发生
你笑着我说怎么可能
原来世上真的有圣诞老人

会把爱的奇迹给勇敢的人

夜的诗人：“

The last installment of the 夜的诗人Christmas Special is the happiest of the lot hehe

Well .. the songs remains as some sort of fantasy for me haha. But I guess this fantasy would be coming true this Christmas for RoRo instead, if not, for her boy boy then.

Here 夜的诗人 wishes all a early Merry Christmas! May all find Christmas in your heart =)

”

笨小孩

2005-12-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

<笨小孩> 原唱：柯受良,刘德华,吴宗宪

哦...宁静的小村外有一个笨小孩
出生在陆零年代
十来岁到城市不怕那太阳
努力在柒零年代
发现呀城市里朋友们不用去灌溉
花自然会开

哦...转眼间那么快这一个笨小孩
又到了捌零年代
三十岁到头来不算好也不坏
经过了玖零年代
最无奈他自己总是会慢人家一拍
没有钱在那口袋

哎哟往著胸口拍一拍呀勇敢站起来
不用心情太坏
哎哟向著天空拜一拜呀别想不开
老天自有安排

哦...他们说城市里男不坏女不爱
怎么想也不明白
妈妈说真心爱会爱得很精彩
结果我没有女孩
笨小孩依然是坚强得像石头一块
只是晚上寂寞难耐

哎哟往著胸口拍一拍呀勇敢站起来
管它上天下海
哎哟向著天空拜一拜呀别想不开
老天自有安排
老天爱笨小孩

夜的诗人：“

夜的诗人的Christmas Special打岔一下，为大家插播这一首'笨小孩'，点给每一个为了考试拼命努力，却一直得不到好成绩的我和你。

一个人吃多少，喝多少，都是注定的。时间一到，两脚一伸，就走了。
Grades也是一样，这一辈子能拿多少个ABCDEF, 老天早已为你安排妥当。

强求不得、勉强不来。

拿成绩的星期一，除了觉得不甘愿以外，似乎又没有什么事情是顺利的。首先是跑回母校应征当relief teacher碰了一鼻子的灰。之后又拿了伤心成绩。再来跑去kinokuniya想买这本《下課後，怪獸家點名！》来安慰自己，才发现第一版已经卖完了，而下一批shipment要在等上3个礼拜才会到，也不会附送海报一张。失望极了！

sigh ... 黑色星期一
”

圣诞结

2005-12-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

<圣诞结> 词：林夕原唱：陈奕迅

我住的城巿从不下雪
记忆却堆满冷的感觉
思念的旺季霓虹扫过喧哗的街
把快乐赶得好远

落单的恋人最怕过节
只能独自庆祝尽量喝醉
我爱过的人没有一个留在身边
寂寞它陪我过夜

Merry Merry Christmas
Lonely Lonely Christmas
想祝福不知该给谁
爱被我们打了死结
Lonely Lonely Christmas
Merry merry Christmas
写了卡片能寄给谁
心碎的像街上的纸屑

电话不接不要被人发现
我整夜都关在房间
狂欢的笑声听来像哀悼的音乐
眼眶的泪温热冻结望著电视里的无聊节目
瘫在沙发上变成没知觉的植物

谁来陪我过这圣诞节?

夜的诗人:“

This 2nd installment of the 夜的诗人's Christmas Special really draws blood.

It really 点出 the 害怕、不甘寂寞心理 of city slickers (and myself, of course). The innate fear that you might be forgotten amongst everybody else's festive celebrations and the thought of no one jio-ing you out for anything, really scares me. But on the other hand, I hate to stay out really late on public holidays if there's no one driving me home willingly. These are really the times when your willingness to pay more to dial for a cab does not neccessarily get you one.

The funny thing is, I don't really lack friends or companions. If I try, I'm sure I could find someone who has had plans I could join in. Just that those that I would be willing to open up to, couldn't be there always. And these are real friends (like family) whom we should all the more not take them for granted. Whether or not they will be with me this Christmas, it is not a bad idea to spend it at home, drinking with my mum and sis.

”

Last Christmas

2005-12-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

[Originally by The Beatles]

Wait
Oh yes, merry Christmas little girl
Wait
Last year, you left me, little girl...

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance
But you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me?
Well
It's been a year
It doesn't surprise me

I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you"
I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now
I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special, special
Oh oh baby

A crowded room
Friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you
And your soul of ice
My god I thought you were
Someone to rely on Me?
I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore him apart
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore him apart
Maybe next year I'll give it to someone
I'll give it to someone special, special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

夜的诗人：“

Christmas is just round the corner! The 夜的诗人's Christmas Special presents to you a few of the 夜的诗人's all-time favourite Christmas-themed songs.

This first one ... I chanced upon it on a rather odd occasion. Was at a childhood friend place, although I can't recall what I was there for also. He liked oldies a lot and he was always playing the oldies on his PC, and that's how I got acquainted with this classic. Besides the catchy tune, it was the lyrics that sort of struck a chord with my situation then. She got steady with him, officially, and announced it to everybody on Christmas Day.

So from then on, come every Christmas, it is a sort of mixed emotions for me. It is both joyous and somewhat reminds me of pain.

Nonetheless, I am glad for Christmas. My life is made meaningful by the real 主角 of Christmas.

”

燕尾蝶

2005-12-13T21:10:00.000+08:00

<燕尾蝶> 词：阿信原唱：梁静茹

兴高采烈的破蛹华丽新生的冲动
寻找灿烂天地美梦
主宰爱情的是谁奋不顾身的扑火
就算轮回只为衬托

你笑你哭你的动作
都是我的圣经珍惜的背颂
我喜我悲我的生活
为你放弃自由要为你左右

你是火你是风你是织网的恶魔
破碎的燕尾蝶还作最后的美梦
你是火你是风你是天使的诱惑
让我作燕尾蝶拥抱最后的美梦
让我短暂快乐很感动

兴高采烈的破蛹重获新生的冲动
寻找爱情世界美梦
既然不是毛毛虫就要壮烈的扑火
短暂青春要像烟火

此生此爱此刻挥霍
挥霍我的色彩在你的天空
你想你说你要我做
其实我很快乐全都因为

你是火你是风你是织网的恶魔
破碎的燕尾蝶还作最后的美梦
你是火你是风你是天使的诱惑
让我做燕尾蝶拥抱最后的美梦
让我快乐让我痛

你是火你是风你是失望的恶魔
破碎的燕尾蝶还作最后的美梦
你是火你是风你是天使的诱惑
让我做燕尾蝶拥抱最后的美梦

让我短暂快乐和感动

夜的诗人：“

超久没有用华语‘搏客’了。
Hmmm 使用华语让我觉得赤裸，有一种期待要透露些什么的感觉。再加上要在电脑打华语字，通常比打英文来得慢，思绪容易被MSN打断。

最近又有一种似成相似的感觉。倒不如说，是一种即将重蹈覆辙的预感。这次有一点点不一样，这次那人比较往常那些还要更加主动十倍。一样的毒勾，用了不同的包装而已。还有这一次，就算真的成功，马上就要面对为期6个月的分离。有些人几十年的恋情都差一点经不起半年的异地分离，何况是这个最需要特地经营的紧要时期，我没有办法和她见面，更不用说在一起分享什么人生经验了。

sigh, 始终还是在自作多情而已。生米还没煮成饭，就已经想用它来炒饭了。都不懂生米会不会煮到烧焦，还是像粥一样的糊。我跟Count Duku下一盘象棋都没有办法想得那么远。我不想怀疑她，不过又不自觉地觉得，也许，她对我和对每个男子都是一样的。她也不是没说过，把我当成一个哥哥一样。难道我非得一而再，再而三地像一只被火焰吸引的飞蛾，飞向一个致命的吸引力？还是我的吸引力不够致命？反正它也未成致命过。

她们因为对我没有什么戒心，成为好朋友不是问题，不过亦斩断了往任何方向的可能。

”

温柔

2005-12-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

<温柔> 五月天

走在风中今天阳光突然好温柔
天的温柔地的温柔像你抱著我
然后发现你的改变孤单的今后
如果冷该怎么渡过?

天边风光身边的我都不在你眼中
你的眼中藏著什么我从来都不懂
没有关系你的世界就让你拥有
不打扰是我的温柔

不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口
我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦
没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过
如果有就让你自由

这是我的温柔

夜的诗人：“
MAYDAY ROCKS!!

I've finally got the chance to go to their concert liaoz. I am soooo high! After missing their last two concerts here in SG; one to SAF, and the previous one due to lack of concert companion, I am so happy to catch their full scale gig 'Live' in Singapore!! Eeky and I stood throughout the concert singing (shouting) and jumping and gesturing. It was THAT high.

This is the song from their second album that made me fall in love with these 5 fellas. I still remember the evening we braved the rain in school uniform, chucking our prelims aside to go to their open air gig at now-defunct 'H20 Place' just outside Cuppage. OOooooh sooo high soo high hahaha

I Love Mayday!
”

蝴蝶

2005-12-01T01:16:00.000+08:00

<蝴蝶> 词/曲：陶喆

当这世界已经准备将我遗弃
像一个伤兵被留在孤独荒野里
开始怀疑我存在有没有意义
在别人眼里我似乎变成了隐形

难道失败就永远翻不了身
谁来挽救堕落的灵魂?

每次一见到你心理好平静
就像一只蝴蝶飞过废墟
我又能活下去我又找回勇气
你的爱像氧气帮忙我呼吸
我又能呼吸
我又能呼吸
你就是不愿意放弃

生命充满乱七八糟的问题
像走在没有出口的那个迷宫里
oh no 一次又一次只会用借口逃避
怎么你从来没对我彻底的死心?

我有何德何能值得你珍惜
为何你对我有求必应?

每次一想到你像雨过天晴
看见一只蝴蝶飞过废墟
是那么的美丽就像一个奇迹
让我从倒下的地方站起
woo....

只要一靠近你
就觉得安心
你看着我的眼没有怀疑
你对我的相信
让我又能重生
不管世界多冷我还有你

我有你

爱我这样的人对你来说不容易
我的痛苦你也经历
你是唯一
陪我到天堂与地狱

每次一想到你
像雨过天晴看见一只蝴蝶飞过了废墟
我能撑得下去我会忘了过去
是你让我找回新的生命

yeah.. 每次一见到你就心存感激
现在我能坦然面对自己
我会永远珍惜我会永远爱你
在我心底的你的位置没有人能代替
yeah 你就是那唯一

夜的诗人：“

Last saturday I was at David Tao's concert, and I guess it would be the last show that I would be paid (peanuts) to attend. But nonetheless, it was a superb performance by the superstar of Chinese R&B. He sang this song only in the Singapore concert because it was the sleeper hit that took off only here. He wrote this song to describe a period where he had very low spirits and his relationship with God was particular patchy. Well ... sort of like mine right now. Anyway, I like this song very much also.

The problem with blogging is, unlike writing a diary, you cannot effectively control who gets to read them. And for a cautious person like myself, I always have the dilemma of whether to just let my feelings go, or to go easy on others'. The current degree of voice control over the cyberspace suggests that I should not blog on workplace happenings or anything politically incorrect.

Everytime I let people know what I do for part time, they are usually envious of the fringe benefits that I get. To be frank, if it was for the money, I would have quit long long ago. Let's call it a 'token' amount. To be fair as well, it is not exactly very hard work. Tsk ... it's just dirty work. It's part of service industry after all; smiling at difficult and unreasonable people and requests are part and parcel of a day's work.

So far, I had tolerated the 'token' amount and work nature pretty well. But it's the co-worker environment that broke the camel's back. Lotsa politics, bickering and bo liao stuff. Basically, it's petty issues that's taken out of context and revenge venged at work time. Of course, there are the not-so-自动 and over-zealous-but-unneccesary people, and the expect-and-talk-a-lot-but-siam-any-trouble-superiors. And also, now start to 流行 shoot email liaoz since the migration to be more IT-fied. Now don't need to come up with the balls to talk straight in the face liaoz. Forget to button up also can get email. And I don't really get the 'be proactive' part anyway, maybe you should demostrate some of those to us. Oh .. there's also the easily-ang-bak and talk-a-lot-cock people. After all these complains, there's a lot of pretty nice people around still. And I really 佩服 them for their 金刚不患之身, to carry on working and be happy at the same time.

That's what I gonna learn during my IA, to get a 金刚不患之身.
”

越吻越伤心

2005-11-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

<越吻越伤心> 曲:吴国敬词:林夕原唱：苏永康

问你哪个配搭穿起使我最配衬
但你冷冷两眼似看着无聊闲人
问你哪一出好戏最近会令人提提神
但换来连场沉默如像跟我嬉笑不再吸引

问你我喝醉了可不可对我吻吻
但你碰碰嘴角动作像撩撩途人
问你会否因工作太累两目完全无神
而你似强制内心的抖震

*越问越伤心明明无余地再过问
明明知道衷心一吻会有更亲厚质感
越问越伤心仍然胡涂是我过份
明明知道彼此不再情深何必追问远近*

问你距我太远可不可以坐更近
但你似听见了某个极无聊奇闻
问你有否想起你我是哪样成为情人
但换来连场沉默如像早觉得我不再吸引

问你那晚见我怎么湿透了发鬓
但你似觉得我问错问题如傻人
问到你跟他相处背后那段缠绵传闻
而你却窃笑像偷偷兴奋

越问越伤心明明无余地再过问
明明知道衷心一吻会有更亲厚质感
越问越伤心仍然胡涂是我过份
明明知道彼此不再情深无谓再叁迫近

夜的诗人：“
Figure why you should not ask a blind how an elephant looks like?
Answer: Because you cannot expect the blind to give you a satisfactory answer.
Therefore, you actually can save yourself some trouble and exasperation by not asking in the first place. The problem with a lack lustre academic record, is that people treat you like a blind, and then still ask you how an elephant looks like.

To be the fair, the above is not an attack on our visually disadvantaged friends. It is just to draw parallels with the parable, 盲人摸象. I am sure if any blind people is asked this question, they would politely apologize and say that they have not seen an elephant before. My point is, if you cannot trust that someone can give you a satisfactory answer, then don't ask. It is very rude to redirect your question to another person in my face after hearing my answer. It is not simply a case of gathering more opinions loh. If it is academic, there usually is a correct or wrong, or a quantified solution to it. When someone asks and I have an answer, I would of course gladly share my knowledge. On the other hand when I don't or when I am unsure, I would be frank and kind enough not to 'smoke' you loh. Of course there are times I would be wrong too, then whoever asked should politely engage me in a meaningful discussion to correct my wrong. By the way, the answer most agreed upon may not be the correct and best answer.

Ever wonder why people are satisfied and end their tirade of queries at Count Dooku and the gang of gods but move on after me? That's right, I'm blind, so stop asking me how the elephant looks like. Go ask someone with proper eyesight.
”

旅行的意义

2005-11-11T22:40:00.000+08:00

<旅行的意义> 词/曲：陈绮贞

你看过了许多美景
你看过了许多美女
你迷失在地图上
每一道短暂的光阴

你品尝了夜的巴黎
你踏过下雪的北京
你熟记书本里
每一句你最爱的真理

却说不出你爱我的原因
却说不出你欣赏我哪一种表情
却说不出在什么场合我曾让你动心
说不出离开的原因

你累计了许多飞行
你用心挑选纪念品
你收集了地图上
每一次的风和日丽

你拥抱热情的岛屿
你埋葬记忆的土耳其
你流连电影里美丽的不真实的场景

却说不出什么在场合
我曾让你分心
说不出旅行的意义

你勉强说出你爱我的原因
却说不出你欣赏我哪一种表情
却说不出在什么场合我曾让你分心
说不出离开的原因

勉强说出你为我寄出的每一封信

都是你离开的原因
你离开我
就是旅行的意义

la...la...la

夜的诗人：“

I would love to be the '你' in the story; the part where the '你' travelled to many different parts of the world. My next project, is to collect all the beer bottle stickers of the beers that I have drank during my GIP in China, paste them nicely onto a A3 cardboard and then frame it up. Hopefully an A3 board would be enough.

I am wondering what the girl in the story is so upset about ... why does '你' going travelling, upsets her soo much? But well, no point sticking with someone who doesn't appreciate or love you, no matter how much you love him/her. Let him/her regret missing his/her only chance.

I am re-loving 陈绮贞 again. She's such a talented rock chick! 陈绮贞 Rocks! But gosh ... her songs are so hard to play. I am so excited I would be able to see her perform 'live' next saturday with tyw and friscuit. Gee .. 2005 must be the year that I watched the most performances ... Wonder if she would sign autographs or not .. then I shall bring her latest album for her to sign. Dah .. don't think so.

”

亲亲我的宝贝

2005-11-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

<亲亲我的宝贝> 周华健

亲亲的我的宝贝
我要越过高山
寻找那已失踪的太阳
寻找那已失踪的月亮

亲亲的我的宝贝
我要越过海洋
寻找那已失踪的彩虹
抓住瞬间失踪的流星

我要飞到无尽的夜空
摘颗星星作你的玩具
我要亲手触摸那月亮
还在上面写你的名字

啦啦呼啦啦啦呼啦啦
还在上面写你的名字
啦啦呼啦啦啦呼啦啦
最后还要平安回来
回来告诉你那一切
亲亲我的宝贝

我要走的世界的尽头
寻找传说已久的雪人
还要用尽我一切办法
让他学会念你的名字

啦啦呼啦啦啦呼啦啦
让他学会念你的名字
啦啦呼啦啦啦呼啦啦
最后还要平安回来
回来告诉你那一切
亲亲我的宝贝

夜的诗人：“
I met a mentor/friend by chance at a cafe in a public library.

Little Sebest 'popped' my coffee like what we would do to tequila-pops in the pubs. It happened so fast that 2 supervising adults could not stop it. Luckily, I always asked for a cup-cover; spillage is kept to a minimum. I could see my friend practising restrain which required years to master, 毕竟my friend used to teach at a neighbourhood secondary school. I was expecting my friend to display some glimpse of parental anger but I guess I did not really want to see it in public anyway. My friend is not the very patient type.

Kids, like everyone else, are multi-faceted and we usually only see a few sides of the full picture of who they are, what pleasure and also what trouble they give. I live in a white hair precint, there are already no more kids at home and cousins with babies live faraway. So when I do see them, they are already in 'presentable' shape. Plus, nobody fault babies for crying. Personally, if I had to choose, I prefer crying babies to pesty kids. Children are like angels, but many are far from that.

And kids are not toys either. Phrases like '带baby来玩leh' sounds really pedophilic. If you really like to play with babies then you should go 'get your own'. Trust me, there are many many many people who don't have kids of their own but love to play with other people's kids. It's such an irony that we always hear parents don't have time for their kids, whereas there are truckloads of other people who do. I know they don't mean it, but sometimes a proposition to go play with the kids sounds like jio-ing pple to go catch a movie or what. Don't treat kids like entertainment, although undoubtedly, they patronise us more willingly then other adults would.

I would love to have children as well but I really dread the bringing up process. The parents would only be part of a child's life, but the rest of the parents' life would forever evolve around the child. I was once a kid myself, I know I personify hell sometimes (and I believe in retribution). I think I would just make kids of close friends and cousins my godchildren. Then I get to feel a little bit of what parenting is like, but without the responsibilities and the sleepless nights. I would also get to enjoy the perks of having fun with them, be a part of their growing up process but not the heated arguments for more allowances or time out to play instead of studying. I certainly don't want to coax a kid to stop playing computer games and go to sleep while I am already half dead from work. Considering the birthday gifts, new year angpaos and Christmas presents I need to fork out every year, compare that to all the costs to bring up a child, I think being a godfather sounds pretty economical.

Sugar daddy sounds cool, but I'd rule it unethical. It doesn't sound right to toy with someone else's kids, whether or not you paid to do so.

”

胆小鬼

2005-10-30T20:00:00.000+08:00

<胆小鬼> 词:郑淑妃曲:李伟菘原唱：梁咏琪

你爱咖啡低调的感觉
偏爱收集的音乐怪的很另类
你很特别每一个小细节
哎呀呀呀
如此的对味

我怕浪费情绪的错觉
讨厌自己像刺猬小心的防卫
我很反对为失恋掉眼泪
哎呀呀呀
离你远一些

喜欢看你紧紧皱眉叫我胆小鬼
你的表情大过於朋友的暧昧
寂寞的称谓甜蜜的责备
有独一无二专属的特别

喜欢看你紧紧皱眉叫我胆小鬼
我的心情就像和情人在斗嘴
奇怪的直觉错误的定位
对你哎呀呀呀
我有点胆怯

我在我的世界不能犯规
你在你的世界笑我无所谓

夜的诗人：“

bayderophobia n.
(bay-day-ro-fo-bee-ah)
Fear of commitment. /Symptoms include procrastinating commitment decisions, so as to reduce regret and pain as a consequent of the commitment. e.g marriage /"He has bayderophobia."

bayderophobe n. a person with bayderophobia/"He is a bayderophobe."
bayderophobic adj.
bayderophobically adv.
Synonym: hamji, jerk

Hmm ... I don't know about others but, you could call it ... not wanting to start something you think you cannot finish, or not getting involved knowing that you don't have the will or stamina to see it through the end. It is something like, you figure that your car is not carrying enough petrol to get you to somewhere, so you won't make the trip unless you are sufficiently filled up. Sometimes, you are wary of getting hurt (again) that when similarities appear, you want to get out of it fast or thread on slowly and carefully.

男人是很自私的，女人又不见得很无私。
男人怕脱不了身，女人怕被不喜欢的人缠。
到最后，男人女人都一样；人不为己，天诛地灭。
所以，这个世界是很现实的。你有条件，你就有资格选。像我这种没条件的，就得等别人挑好了。

By the way, you read about 'bayderophobia' first at this blog. The blog owner has reserved all the rights to the term and all its derivatives. It's fine to use the word as long as you acknowledge that you learnt about it here and make valid references to this site.
”

恋爱症候群

2005-10-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

<恋爱症候群> 词/曲：黄舒俊

恋爱症候群的发生原因
至今仍然是最大的一个迷
不管性别年龄职业体重学历长相和血型
没有一个人可以免疫
有些专家学者研究后相信
恋爱是内分泌失调所引起
却有别人认为恋爱属于过滤性簿
像感冒无药可救但会自动痊愈
不管你同不同意
自古到今许多例子证明
恋爱不但是一种病态
它还可能是一种变态

一般发病后的初期反应
会开始改变一些生活习性
洗澡洗得特别干净刷牙刷得特别用力
半夜里爬起来弹钢琴
有人每天站在阳台对路人傻笑
有人突然疯疯癫癫突然很安静
有人一脸痴呆对著镜子咬著指甲打喷嚏
有人对小狗骂三字经
女人开始改变发型
男人开始每天练著哑铃
食欲不振歇斯底里四肢萎缩神经过敏发抖
抽筋都出现在这时期

随著病情越来越变本加厉
人会变得格外敏感勇敢和恶心
写的唱的说的都像天才诗人一般才华洋溢
愈肉麻愈觉得有趣
有人恋爱之后每天躲在厕所哭泣
有人开记者会宣布恋爱的消息
有人总是喜欢两个人躲在黑漆漆的地方
像做了不可告人的事情
每天忙著算命
挖空心思改变自己配合对方的习性
把每天都当作记念日
把自己当作记念品
每天漫无目的腻在一起
言不及意也决得好有趣
走著坐著躺著趴著都行影不离
像是两人三脚又像连体婴
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管家里米缸有没有米
也不管路上有人示威抗议
只管爱你
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管海峡两岸统一问题
也不管埃塞俄比亚多少难民
只管爱你

经过一段轰轰烈烈热恋时期
不久就会开始渐渐痊愈
两人开始互相厌倦互相攻击对方缺点
所有甜言蜜语都随风而去
然后开始从错觉和误解中清醒
惊讶自己为何如此不聪明
为了爱情不顾一切
不顾父母朋友姐妹兄弟
开始感到后悔不已
然后开始感到疲惫沉闷气喘心悸牙痛头痛梦呓
然后是精神不济瞳孔放大脾气暴躁四肢麻痹
终于受不了要分离

虽然结果颇令人伤心
了解之后也没什么了不起
爱情终究是握不住的云
只是我想要告诉你

哦...

在我落寞的岁月里
你的温柔解脱我的孤寂
带给我深深的狂喜
如此颤动著我的心灵
轻轻诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你
不管黑夜或是黎明
不管梦中或是清醒
深深爱你
我要对你说爱你爱你爱你爱你
不管黑夜或是黎明
不管梦中或是清醒
深深爱你
多么幸福
让我遇见你
呜...

夜的诗人：“

The approach to exams this semester is rather relaxing. In fact, I've been telling myself not to catch the kancheong bug and keep to a comfortable schedule. I know my capabilities and limits; 'Di' exists only on the legend and all the 'A's are already reserved. So no matter what my heart tells me, I will coerce it to believe that 'A' and 'B' is actually ... 'about the same'. All the bullshit about finishing all the past year papers at this stage is aimed at making kancheong spiders even more kancheong, on purpose of course. Besides, when some people ask questions, they already have assumptions and answers they want to hear. So I am actually doing them a favour, by telling them what they want to hear.

It has been really wet for the past week, while inspirations to write are going through a drought of its own. The funny thing is, I am trying hard not to be busy actually, although my mind is preoccupied with fantasies of fish head curry, draft brews, spliting my backside on the bike trip to KL, and finishing the niggling GE presentation. I tried and failed miserably to write something about greedy guys who want the best of all worlds in a woman, so the best I can do is to leave whoever still reads this blog with a song by 黄舒俊. Record-holding 838 words, with none of the verses repeating. Incidentally, I was reminded of this song when watching 康熙来了 non-stop at night and one of the episodes had 黄舒俊 and 周传雄 as that night's guests.

Had a ... sort of interesting conversation with LJ on MSN. Excerpts as below:

The permission of the parties involved had been soughted before the above is replicated on this blog.

”

Lady Rain

2005-10-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

Lady Rain by Indecent Obsession

And there were times when the sky would bring me nothing
Except the smell of the rain of the summertime
So I left my window open just to let you come inside
Saying that you'd never leave me was a lie

And there were times that my eyes were filled with water
But all the world was desert dry
So I hugged my pillow closer and I tried to close my eyes
But the sound of distance thunder make me cry

*Lady Rain, I hear you at my window
Lady Rain, I need you softly falling on my face
Why did the sunshine come and take you away
I wait for you again my Lady Rain

I hear the sound of the breathing in the darkness
And autumn rain can turn to snow in the night
I'll be sleeping this September
But I'll leave the fire light
Just in case you feel like coming round again

And late at night when you pour down on me
You're just in time to wash all the tears away

夜的诗人：“
Today's rain just wouldn't stop, just like the tears of a heartbroken lover.

A clean slate of glass wall seperates me and the grey-hued water curtain outide. It must have felt miserable if I had been outfield; wet, soggy and no where to hide. Dead leaves and mud stick on your boots, and somewhere near the muck is where you can find your morale.

Civillian and progress come at a great cost, but I am willing to pay for it. I can appreciate the rain from where I am, without tolerating it's lashes.
”

我还记得

2005-10-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

<我还记得> 词：黄婷原唱：梁静茹

十年后的今天遇见你
年少轻狂已远去
成熟稳重也保持距离沉默里千言万语

时光回到那年夏天
公车站前你笑容满面
拍拍我的头说你好吗？
一句问候填满青春别人的话都听不见
岁月凝结在你的视线

我还记得那年倾盘大雨
狼狈奔跑穿越几条街
握紧的双手为爱的不顾一切
我还记得那年你的声音
耳边回荡那一句誓言
你吻我的脸都是我心中收藏一生的快乐

渐渐我们都有新朋友
多久不再并肩走
忙忙碌碌看人生匆匆忘记了年轻的梦

好想回到那年夏天教室门前你笑容满面
拍拍我的头说你别哭
考坏一次不是末日未来还有很长的路
我们要一起去看世界

我还记得那年晴空万里那一道飞机云的弧线
蜿蜒着思念写下故事的总结
我还记得那年你的年轻刻在从前最美的时间
在我生命里你不曾告别不曾走远

与你重逢前一个夜晚往事在梦中上演
终要去体验真实人生的残缺

夜的诗人：“

I still remember the times I walked her home.
I still remember the exam paper she said she thought she would flunk.

And the movies we watched together.

I also remember the way I told you about it, and the way you stepped out of it awkwardly.

Now that each time I see you, you are always floating happily around him like a butterfly dancing around a flower. Don't get me wrong, I got over it and I am happy to give the both of you my blessings. It was great to hear that you have so much to share about your relationship, your first and certainly your last. To me, the two of you are made for each other, and nothing will ever seperate the two of you. In fact, it brings a smile on my face when I recall those days when I was infatuated with you.

That was how silly youth could be =)

”

疯狂世界

2005-09-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

<疯狂世界> 五月天

如果说了后悔是不是一切就能倒退
回忆多么美活着多么狼狈
为什么这个世界总要叫人尝伤悲
我不能了解也不想了解

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回

想了你一整夜再也想不起你的脸
你是一种感觉写在夏夜晚风里面
青春是挽不回的水转眼消失在指间
用力的浪费再用力的后悔

夜的诗人：“

I am at it again ... doing everything that is not quite at the right time. Even Count Dooku feels that he does not have enough time to finish all the academic stuff. I just thought I am comfortably on time. I never miss deadlines, and I do not leave things till the last minute either. Although I fall short of being consistently consistent, I am proud to be able to keep up thus far.

But my dislike for studying has pushed me to conduct various extra curricular activities. Do take note of the intention use of the word 'extra' instead of the word, 'co', that is the politically correct term the authorities want to hear. So far I have made research in and acquired materials for the following areas:

- Possible choices of a new bike

- Possibility of cycling up to KL

- Post GIP tour of China

- Procurement of Mayday Concert tickets

I am pleased to announce that I have narrowed my choice of a new bike to Scott Roadster S3, and have found a few interested parties for the cycling trip up to KL. I have also successfully obtained a copy of Lonely Planet China, and a somewhat detailed writeup on Yunnan area. Finally, I have also secured the purchase of choice seats to the Mayday concert this coming December.

That leaves me with nothing much to look forward liaoz, right?
And they are all money sucking activities.
Heck lah, what good is money if you don't spend them for your enjoyment?

”

最快乐那一年

2005-09-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

<最快乐那一年> 曲:黄韵玲　词:姚若龙原唱：梁静茹

一部怀旧的电影淋湿了心情
你的爱还在旅行或已定居哪里?

也许遗憾和年轻总绑在一起
不容许一点委屈等放手才懂惋惜
静下心来发现过去大半是甜蜜回忆

我最快乐那一年
是你陪我经历一切
什么都生动又强烈
有真正在活着的感觉

我们最快乐的那一年
像浓缩了最精华的时间
短暂却永远是火焰
在情绪冰凉时暖和心田

多留恋都不能
活在从前
决定不愁眉苦脸
不让深爱的人挂念

夜的诗人：“

我们本以为自己是认识自己最久的人，当然最了解自己。不过往往要经过一些事情，或者一系列的事情，才发现自己从没发现过的性格。

经过这么多年，我想我还是一个害怕commitment的人。因为我害怕付出，害怕把感情‘投资’在里面以后，换来的‘回报’不如想象中的美好。是， ultimately我是一个又肤浅又自私的王八蛋。So far, my experiences have not been as good as hoped. At the end of that day, 我会问自己，这又何必呢？也不是说其中没有得到乐趣或者什么，就只是想在泥足深陷以前，把全部‘资金’转到另一个户口里。

tyw suggested that 我是一个'free spirit'。我是蛮讨厌被别人管的，但又不怎么喜欢没人关心的感觉。放荡不羁的野马有属于自己的群体，自由翱翔的老鹰还是有一个叫做家的窝。sigh ... I want the best of both worlds 就对了，明白吗？I love accompany, but I also guard my personal space ... rather fiercely I realised ...

往往我们看到或听到一些人处理事情的方式，的确很欠缺完美。有时候我会对自己说，我面对同样的问题时，我绝对不可以像他那样处理。或者某个人的脾气千万不可以‘学’，因为会破坏人与人之间的关系。不过真正轮到自己面对的时候，才发现，那也只不过人之常情。要做到脾气完美的一个人，你必须要有小孩子的宽容、少年人的执著、老年人的智慧。既然我什么都不是，我可以做一个‘有脾气的free spirit’ 吗？

”

旧爱还是最美

2005-09-15T23:56:00.000+08:00

<旧爱还是最美> 曲:陈子鸿词:姚若龙原唱：苏永康

半夜看cable 的旧电影寂寞好深
像看自己从前从前的幸福和愚蠢
电影里主角回头的泪痕那泪痕
忽然好想旧情人的柔软双唇

人一辈子常常只有只有一次缘份
错过就再也遇不到那黱好的人
於是心里不时飘浮暖暖那个吻
从此能付出的情爱也不完整

oh...不自禁找寻很像她的情人
但是没有谁有像她的灵魂

旧爱还是最美
美的东西往往太早枯萎
後悔时的泪水
又特别让人觉得无力疲惫
旧爱还是最美
有时分手不是谁负了谁
两个对的人却在错的时候爱了一回

夜的诗人：“

我再也找不到一摸一样的铅笔盒了。它还在我身边，不过已经破损至无法修补的地步了。我也没有刻意去寻找一个代替品，不过那个需要，越来越紧迫了。

无意间在Wallet Shop看见相似的铅笔盒。样子大了一点，拉链环比较长，颜色也比较鲜艳，价钱还合理。不过怎样看，怎么样比，还是看不上眼。这也许对新的铅笔盒很不公平，毕竟长得像也不是它故意的。它因为像而得到了青睐，却又因为根本不是同一款而被无情地淘汰。对于旧了又破了的铅笔盒，我还是舍不得，还是没办法让另一个去替代它。

难道我们得非等到一份旧爱完完全全地变质，我们才甘愿把它放掉吗？不合身的鞋子，硬硬把它套在脚上，辛苦了脚，又撑坏了料，吃力不讨好。

有些人就是没办法放下，一辈子都在寻找，要找回同一个感觉。寻寻觅觅，却看不见更好的风景。就算再美，也不肯给予新风景肯定与赞美，总是希望能找回那旧感觉，随时张开双手去拥护它。东西也一样，人也一样，爱情更是这样。不过他/她/它再也不会回来了，一旦错过，你就没有那个资格去拥有他/她/它了。就算有朝一日有机会再遇上，对不起，人事已非。

嗨，还是赶快去买一个新的铅笔盒。

”

我恨我爱你

2005-09-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

<我恨我爱你> 词:郑淑妃曲:陈达伟原唱：张惠妹

面带微笑离开你怀里
我听天由命
最后一张王牌在手里二选一的机率
不能放纵爱你就放过自己

爱情已经过了甜蜜期
多说也是无益
爱不爱我已经没关系一点小伤而已
你可以很放心
我不会为了留你
假装可怜兮兮

都怪我太不争气
我恨我爱你
oh~我爱你
只是因为你是你
oh~我恨你

你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的…
新恋情

没关系…

我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你
我恨你最后那一句

我爱你

夜的诗人：“

在这首歌之前，有一首我蛮喜欢的 'I hate myself for loving you'. 英文版比较好玩, 可以在夜店疯狂地和陌生人一起大声喊它的chorus. 想必在身旁的陌生人, 也爱过一些永远得不到的爱、一些不值得的爱.

回顾从前，发现每个‘那日’之后的重逢、邂逅，两个人都可以大方地问候，装着若无其事，好像什么都没发生过.虽然不是每一次都觉得自然，甚至还是有一点尴尬，不过我想，我还是办到了表现大方的最低限度。毕竟，我不是一个爱过就算的人.

我们是不是越来越没有诚意了？Do we really mean it when we said, "Let's catch up again someday, yah?"? 那为什么我们要到了另一次相遇才想起我们还没有约好几时要出来见个面？或者交换了手机号码，却从来没有联络过, other than to make sure输入了正确的号码以外, 就只是发一些没诚意的冷笑话mass sms. 失去联络的朋友也一样, 旧爱人也是一样. 旧爱人旁边有新人的话, 就考你的勇气和诚意了.

”

心痛

2005-09-02T21:22:00.000+08:00

<心痛>作词：林秋离　作曲：许环良原唱：陈洁仪

你总是这样说我　像一颗不容易溶化的糖果
带我见你的朋友　又很得意的埋怨我沉默

你追问我的行踪　
你在乎我的举动
哄得我泪眼迷濛　做些事情让我被感动

望着你　突然一阵心痛　
一次又一次任那感情放纵
你的脆弱　让我走不开　
你的依赖　所以我存在

想着你　还是想到心痛　
期待我做的　将来你都会懂
有一天　真如果有一天　
但愿我还在你记忆中

有一天　真如果有一天　但愿我还在你记忆中

夜的诗人：“
虽败犹荣，若没有高深的道行，实在表现不出来。

有什么人参加比赛，却没有一点想赢的渴望？如果知道根本没有可能，那可以另当别论。大可以安慰自己说，这次只是来吸取经验。如果抱着‘试试看’的心态却过关斩将，或者已经下了一番努力与苦工之后，哪里有那么容易放得下？所以能够输了比赛却没有败家的狼狈、仍然能够抬起头来，大方地恭喜赢家的人，我觉得很佩服。这种人的例子有，英国前首相梅杰、苏联前总统戈尔巴乔夫、和刚圆满结束的绝对Superstar，在女子组决赛被淘汰的石欣卉。他们都是在苦战之后败给劲敌，却可以很有勇气、很大方地恭贺祝福对方前程似锦。

伤心流泪没关系，人之常情。反之，有些人输了又不服，在旁冷言冷语翻白眼，甚至大吵大闹，把任何能翻案的方法都使出来，或者攻击对方获胜的手法，为的就是争一口气，不让赢家赢得那么‘爽’。输不起就是了。这些人不一定是参赛者本身，有些只是与当事人没有任何关系的支持者。就像台湾政治界，forever在翻旧帐、互相找茬，什么东西都可以用来‘臭’对方。说不过人又大打出手。

福建人有一句话，‘输人不输阵’。输了也不要那么bo seh，到头来只是xia suay自己而已。
这首歌，是石欣卉告别比赛的告别曲。非凡功力，经典演绎。

”

计较

2005-08-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

<计较> 歌手：王馨平

我个性太直不喜欢去掩饰
爱情之中你我都有独特的样子
我偶尔幼稚你偶尔太固执
感情最近怎么回事争吵变成沟通的方式

计较你爱得多爱得少
计较你让我哭让我笑
你若多给一个拥抱
感觉就不会太快走掉

计较你对我坏对我好
计较你带我疯带我逃
爱的越久越不明了谁对谁比较好

有什么我需要有什么我得不到
你要知道爱要让我看到

两个人都怕爱输给自私

夜的诗人：“

有没有朋友，是因为你越来越了解他，而觉得越来越不能接受他？甚至开始讨厌、厌恶他？
从刚认识他的完美表面，到进一步至今什么丑陋都看尽了以后，你是否有失望过？
你已经可以看透他话中所真正想表达的意识，你已经可以掌握他对一句话或一件事的反应是如何，你已经和他无数次在暗中互相怀疑、批评。

是不是因为日子久了，你对这个朋友的要求，会从原本交友时的不介意、无所谓，
变成了一个最低限度？

还是和他之间安置一些距离，希望距离能使点燃的导火线自己熄灭，给彼此大一点的缓冲区。
没必要的话，尽量少说话比较好。

我又能凭什么，针对一个人呢？

”

半斤八两

2005-08-22T01:08:00.000+08:00

<半斤八两> 词/原唱：许冠杰

我地呢班打工仔
通街走直头系坏肠胃
温个些少到月底点够驶(吃个鬼)
咪话无乜所谓

最弊波士郁的发威(癫过鸡)
一咪系处系唔系就乱黎吠
哎亲加薪块面拿起恶睇(扭下计)
你就认真开胃

半斤八两做到只积甘既样
半斤八两湿水炮仗点会响
半斤八两够姜就揸枪走去抢
出左半斤力想话摞番足八两
家阵恶温食边有半斤八两甘理想(吹涨)

我地呢班打工仔
一生一世为钱币做奴隶
个种辛苦折堕讲出吓鬼(死比你睇)
咪话无乜所谓

半斤八两就算有福都无你享
半斤八两仲惨过滚水渌猪掌
半斤八两鸡碎甘多都要啄
出左半斤力想话摞番足八两
家阵恶温食边有半斤八两甘理想

夜的诗人：“
Being not-as-smart renders me frontline jobs like sales, ushering and flyer distributing. Otherwise I would be giving tuition and musing at silly people resorting to low level jobs like these. Or I can study so hard for a scholarship that pays me allowance as well, then I can say all I can want about the opportunity costs of me working so hard for a scholarship and that's why others have to work to earn money and I don't need to. You think I really want to work meh? If I am not bound by scarcity, then I would not have subjected myself to all these unneccssesary abuses liaoz.

And being in the direct contact with the customers, and sometimes backed by ball-less superiors who would do and say anything to keep a distance from customers, you sometimes really want to slap the customer and kick the superior's crouch but all you can do is curse under your breath and smile. Some middle management people are so paraniod, dainty and eager to impress that they impose absurd rules that are neither sensible nor effective. I suspect some of these young punks and old stiff joints have never worked on ground level before. Let me at least put in a good word, some of them are really good drivers; slave drivers.

Sometimes I think that since I am the one bringing in the money directly, why am I paid the least in the chain? Shouldn't I be paid more for my hardwork that is actually bringing in for the company tens of thousands? Why am I at the wrong end of capitalism?

But I must admit, it's a pretty dirty job to be in contact with customers. Singaporeans are a cheapo lot. They metmorphosize the perfect model of consumers in economics; wanting the best but paying the least. They simply don't care that others are also trying to earn a living. I don't feel like describing how shameless they can get, in short they don't give a damn that people like me is providing a service and I should be duly paid for it. I also really cannot stand people who treat service providers as if they are of a lower class. Some of these people really know how to abuse their non-existent powers and now I can understand why service standards of Singapore is so low compared to Japan, Hong Kong or Taiwan; consumers here are big-time suckers. How can you expect people to respect you when you don't respect other people? Salesman are also human loh ... ushers are also somebody's child loh ... runners can do their job happily if you can treat them politely loh ... Some jobs are difficult, some are simple. Doing a simple job does not make one simpler or lower status than anybody, because 职业不分贵贱. After all, what are you superiors without ground staff like me, without whom you cannot accompish your job? Go and sell to the customer youself, go and do ushering yourself, go and distribute flyers yourself, do without your runner and do everything yourself, I'm sure you will screw it up and go screw yourself anyway.

All you smarties who will start your high flying careers in management, better know how to treat your subordinates right. And don't ever think their job is easy compared to yours and question why they cannot do such simple things correctly. *Arghh!
”

The Birthday Song

2005-08-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

THE BIRTHDAY SONG
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 2003, Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)

Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be

Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul you've helped to grow
A little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years, just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of that child within your eyes

夜的诗人：“
I'm broke every August, every cent saved goes to the buying and sharing of birthday gifts. I should have taken note of this in July and start saving up for August every year.

It's your birthday this time of the year again, my old friend. Happy Birthday! May you be healthy and filled with happiness always.

To all the other August babies, have a Happy Birthday!
”

一百萬

2005-08-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

<一百萬> 詞/曲/原唱：黃一飛

若是我有一百萬一百萬
我有一百萬一世人就輕鬆
無講無人知講到真歹勢
吃甲彼呢大漢擱不曾坐飛機
打拼彼多年無車無厝擱無愛人
看人娶某擱做生意有錢擱有勢

若是我有一百萬我要坐飛機
我要遊世界HAWAII曬太陽日本吃壽司
若是我有一百萬我要買車買厝山珍甲海味
啥人卡福氣來乎我做某
若是我有一百萬一百萬
若是你有欠用錢開嘴免客氣

若是我有一百萬我要坐飛機
我要遊世界義大利飲咖啡路邊吃Spaghetti
若是我有一百萬我要買車買厝買店來收租
閒閒免做工帶狗去散步

若是我有一百萬一百萬若是你有欠用錢開嘴免客氣
若是我有一百萬一百萬十千八千拿去用免還嘛無問題
若是我有一百萬一百萬

口白：朋友啊,你想一百萬真多啊!

夜的诗人：“
The study of economics is perpetuated by this fundamental problem that occur to everybody; the scarcity of resources. Without scarcity (of cash, in particular), I would have gotten my new hp, bought any music CDs of artises I fancy and flew to Prague to see the Charles Bridge during my holidays. I might also pick up a Vespa to scoot around when I feel like bumming around, and a GSX and R1 and 1150GS when the beasts in my blood are awakened from its slumber. I will also keep a Bimmer to impress any potential mother-in-laws. I would also buy the best seats to 雪狼湖，五月天 and 梁静茹concert, I would also gladly 'subsidise' anyone who would be willing to go with me.

Then it seems to me, even 一百万might not be enough ... better don't be too greedy =P
”

泪该停梦该醒

2005-08-13T13:06:00.000+08:00

<泪该停梦该醒> 唱:周华健词:刘志宏,刘思铭

年轻的你有没有快乐的事说给我听?
我们之间有没有距离?
倔强的你有多少寂寞的歌放在心里?
不要我懂宁愿让两个人难过
想的全是曾经你给我的欢喜
却是难忘记难回忆的过去

我知道泪该停我知道梦该醒
我更知道我还是不肯相信
泪该停梦该醒
我还是不愿离开你
我知道泪该停我知道梦该醒
你却永远也不懂我的伤心
泪该停梦该醒
我这样爱你又何必?

美丽的你有太多善变的心寻寻觅觅
痴心等候一次一次失望的走
想的全是曾经你给我的欢喜
却是难忘记
难回忆的过去

夜的诗人：“
They say 人因为有梦想而伟大, and I really dream a lot. Not those in deep sleep, but day dreaming.

As I contemplate to go GIP Shanghai, I've already fantasized of cycling down the Bund, and imagining myself, a Singaporean sipping American coffee in Starbucks located in the swanky suburb of Shanghai's 新天地. I've also figured out that I could visit Beijing and stay with eeky during the CNY holidays and in return, eeky and friend could come over to stay in Shanghai during MayDay (my favourite band!) week-long break. And since I would possibly be sharing flat with 熟人, I thought we could buy a router and share internet connection. If 非洲难民 makes it as well, then it would be deja vu. My weekends would be spent exploring the last few blocks of ancient architecture left alone by the ruthless pace of development. Or I can take train out to nearby provinces that are famed for their natural beauty and beauties. I would then extend my stay in China for a month, for which I would spend it to treat myself to a grand tour round the land of the dragon. If I impress my boss well enough, I am welcomed to work with him/her again at Shanghai after I graduate and finish my NS.

All the above went through my mind, as if it would certainly be done, when all that's confirmed, is that I've submitted my application online.

There must have been numerous occasions where I've jumped the gun, and counted my chickens before the eggs hatched. And it really hurts when your dreams 破灭
or has been indefinitely delayed and you don't know where it would be heading towards. Be it relationships or academic results，it pays not to expect too much out of it. As they have also said, hope for the best but expect the worst.

”

很想你

2005-08-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

<很想你> 原唱：张智成曲:余哲函词:施人诚

你在那里? 这些年来如意不如意?
还快乐? 还单纯? 还美丽? 时光如何对你?

我在这里人海中一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你, 你知道吗?
如果可以就让我再见你
美好微笑清澈眼睛
好确定那场分离只毁了我一个而已

我很想你, 听见了吗? woo...
这是唯一我无解的困境
那些过去不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息都不是你

我在那里你会不会偶尔好奇?
有没有曾经怀疑?
我说我会忘记只是种好意

都不是你我只想爱你

夜的诗人：“
This song is soo nice, soo real, that it pains to hear it again.

'不管我后来遇见多少人, 只能叹息, 都不是你'
”

坐在巷口的那对男女

2005-08-10T19:51:00.000+08:00

<坐在巷口的那对男女> 自然卷

坐在巷口的那对男女
紧紧的抱在一起
一动也不动的呆在那里
时间好像跟他们没关系
是什么样的心情什么样的心情
难道这就是爱情
啦啦啦啦...

坐在巷口的那对男女
脸上没有表情
路灯一盏一盏的熄灭
他们始终没有说上半句
是什么样的情绪什么样的情绪
难道这就是爱情
啦啦啦啦...

让人又哭又笑抓摸不定
让人飞翔让人坠落谷底
喔难道这就是爱情

坐在巷口的那对男女
笑声从来没停
老师叫你上台介绍自己
也没见你那么充满自信
是什么样的勇气什么样的勇气
我想这就是爱情
啦啦啦啦...

夜的诗人:"
It's getting tougher to be male and single. You end up always going out with the same lads. And as time passes, the pool of lads willing to go out with you get smaller and the good women of the world have all fallen prey to bad men. You realise that the getting-laid-in-pubs stories are all fabricated and that despite true love can wait, it didn't actually wait for you.

With slightly more time on my hands this semester, and new hobbies that are keeping me mentally alive, I naively ask the blokes to join me, only to find out that work-life balance is not on anybody's priority. Their idea of life is probably net-gaming and mugging. Maybe it's also a good thing I'm not exactly 'academically useful', except for the resources of tutorial solutions and lab reports. If not I might need to entertain questions that should be directed to tutors but conveniently lavished on me, because I'd be much easier to approach. But since it will never happen, so never mind.

In the meantime, I shall always have problems finding jogging buddies (who will kindly slowdown and wait for me) or badminton partners. And should anyone of those I know I can turn to, decides to concentrate on their studies or go steady, I will have trouble keeping up with my favourite activities liao.

Couple friends are usually as fun to go out with as the same-gender singles. Nobody will harbour hidden agenda about one another and so in the outing, everyone can let down their guards and have good fun. However, avoid giving too much attention to either one of them. You will have trouble if you are getting too close to the girl or deprived the girl's attention from her guy.

But sometimes as the extra person, you really won't want to get involved in their bickerings if they have any. Sometimes, they have had an argument prior to meeting you and one of them wants someone neutral to justify his/her point of view. It's so difficult to find a politically correct answer that would satisfy both of them. And no matter what you really think, you must never take sides to avoid irking either one of them. If not, you will have trouble lugging a sulking party along.

And also, learn to intepret when is your presence unwelcomed anymore. Otherwise, just bear with all the lovey-duvey and the feeling of being left out.

Just stick to your bachelor lads, lah.
Until you got your steady.
"

迷你裙

2005-08-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

<迷你裙> 旺福

可爱中带点sexy sexy中又带点神秘
神秘中带点俏皮俏皮又可爱了回去
大腿唱起了歌曲小腿戴上太阳眼镜
擦上了防晒乳液迎接夏天的来临

Mini Mini Mi-Mini Mini 迷你的裙迷你的热情
夏天的冰淇淋对眼睛不断勾引

Mini Mini Mi-Mini Mini 高高低低都是种算计
高高让人喘息而低点让人好奇

Mini Mini Mi-Mini Mini 风儿吹过露出了pp
pp散发热力让太阳红了脸皮

Mini Mini Mi-Mini Mini 不同的腿儿不同的美丽
萝卜简短有力鸟仔ㄎㄚ真神气

让这个夏季到处是冰淇淋 !

夜的诗人:"
Life living away from campus means taking the train and then 179/199 everyday. It's pretty exciting to see the mini skirts seemingly float just above the hips that they are hugging, first on the train, and then on 179 or 199. You just don't get to see them in LT2A. Guys in NTU have to thank the architects of NTU for building the staircase at Canteen A bus stop to be so steep; even if you are not curious, you will always see the answer of the question you might be interested in.

I've heard and experienced that women always don't have any nice words for outstanding specimens of their own kind. Beautiful ones are called vixens, sexy ones are called sluts, cute ones are called bitches. The rest you can just call them plain ugly, if not, desperate. Singapore has it's fair share of fashion disasters, and the worst types are those who are have obvious weaknesses, and then choose to expose them to mockery. I was going off to dinner with my aunt and while we were waiting for our bus at the bus stop, we saw this thunder-thighs in mini skirt running for her bus. The sight didn't interest me at all of coz, but my aunt couldn't resist the temptation to say,

'Wah lao, 这么肥还穿那么短的裙. 跑的时候都看得到她的内裤.'

"

终结孤单

2005-08-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

<终结孤单> 五月天

约你你说不来来了你又不high
大家开开心心出来玩你却埋头吃饭
如果你的孤单只是你的习惯
你就把你自己锁起来
实在是太不应该

心情好心情坏怎么开始怎么办
你有的不爽让我来分担
everything gonna be alright
tomorrow will be fine
太阳依然灿烂地球继续转
（有我的陪伴你再也不孤单/有我的陪伴一起终结孤单）

卫冕者接受挑战难免也会失败
人生像一场比赛还是要保持乐观
请你把头抬起来帮你把勇气装满
有我这样完美的朋友
high不high 当然很high
啦.......

夜的诗人：“
I profess that I am someone with 'not much life'.

I don't go chiong

I don't drink outside

I seldom go to the movies

I sort of .. like to read

I don't play computer games

I don't really watch TV anymore and for that matter,

I don't watch 偶像剧, Friends, or Lost

The funny thing is, I still don't find time to complete my tutorials. Therefore I really wonder what other undergrads do when they get home, since a good number of them do not complete their tutorials as well. Especially when I jio them out for movie or free concerts or just plain window shopping, nobody seem to have the time or energy to do so. I am very very curious, since a 'no-lifer' like myself, who is also working part time, can find time to meet up with old friends and try to set up movie outings or shopping. Or is it that whatever that interests me, don't interest any people? Or town area is simply too far?

Well, to this I have some excuses for them. Girls never lack company, and even when they really do, they won't want to go out with me. Guys with girlfriends will reserve themselves for their girlfriends, coz years of brotherhood is cheap. As for guys with no girlfriends, some are obsessed with studies, for some, travelling in small Singapore is still too far, while some will never be caught dead going out with other guys.

Or is there a spell that keeps them at home?
”

恒星的恒心

2005-07-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

恒星的恒心

你和我看星星那夜空多神秘
天很黑风很急你把我抱得很紧
沉默的银河系因为你有意义
你要是落泪滴世界都要下雨

雨降落在大地我安静倾听
却无法领悟你为何放弃？

带走回荡的回忆你像流浪的流星
把我丢在黑夜想著你
你要离开的黎明我的眼泪在眼睛
下定决心我决定

恒星的恒心
等你等你(等著你等著你等著你等著你)

那一年的花季那一刻的呼吸
那一生的旅行因为你动魄惊心
我不是很聪明我以为我可以
守护你一直到最后一丝呼吸

我只是没发现故事已结局
你早已离去我还在坚定

老了累了倦了变了那不会是我不会是我

夜的诗人：“
热度timing=3分钟的我，会有时候东西已经到了很迟的地步，才开始后悔。不过没有一些冲动的话，很多东西我可能永远都不会去尝试。我已经很久没有用恒心去push through或者去insist自己一定要完成一些事情。

Of lately, 为了要填application form我一直在想，自己到底有什么长处、优点值得别人雇用或入取。才更进一步了解，自己也没什么可夸的。以下是我的结论；

-有谋无勇
-有色无胆
-有人性没异性
-不坏，女人也不爱
-什么都会一点点，没有一样精
-有expensive tastes，没有本事拥有
-有心无力
-有想法，没有办法

我对the last one感觉相当强烈。因为想做website的时候，觉得自己的idea很好，却一直没有办法把它变成product或者at least close to the concept。Quite disappointed that I could never materialize any concepts that I might have, either no skill or no avenue to allow me to do so. Then 我也觉得真的什么都会一点点，就是没有一样精，没有一件事是我可以应以为荣的。Although I really do appreciate the nice words friends do offer time to time.

”

追

2005-07-21T22:42:00.000+08:00

<追> 曲:李迪文词:林夕原唱:张国荣

这一生也在进取这分钟却挂念谁?
我会说是唯独你不可失去
好风光似幻似虚
谁明人生乐趣?
我会说为情为爱仍然是对
谁比你重要?
成功了败了也完全无重要
谁比你重要?
狂风与暴雨都因你燃烧

一追再追
只想追赶生命里一分一秒
原来多麽可笑
你是真正目标
一追再追
追踪一些生活最基本需要
原来早不缺少
有了你即使平凡却最重要

好光阴纵没太多一分钟那又如何?
会与你共同渡过都不枉过
疯恋多错误更多
如能从新做过
我会说愿能为你提前做错
谁比你重要?
成功了败了也完全无重要
谁比你重要?
狂风与暴雨都因你燃烧

一追再追
只想追赶生命里一分一秒
原来多麽可笑
你是真正目标
一追再追
追踪一些生活最基本需要
原来早不缺少
有了你即使平凡却最重要

只得你会叫我彷佛人群里最重要
有了你仿佛沈睡了
也在笑

夜的诗人：“

Everytime I passby CBD on my way to the indoor stadium, I wonder if one day I would be one of the rats in there. Used to think that working in Shenton Way is really cool, decking out in shirt and tie, lunching in restaurants and chilling out at Boat Quay after work, plus all the OL babes ...

But well ... I don't think so anymore .. and I'm pretty sick of studying.

What sort of lifestyle and 'career', will I get to do the following?

Below are some of the 'careers' worthed considering:

Alexxis had a killer idea with "travel writer", and I love it TOTALLY. I wonder if I really can make a living out of it, right here in Singapore anyway.
”

男人哭吧不是罪

2005-07-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

<男人哭吧不是罪> 词：刘德华原唱：刘德华

在我年少的时候
身边的人说不可以流泪
在我成熟了以后
对镜子说我不可以后悔
在一个范围不停的徘徊
心在生命线上不断的轮回
人在日日夜夜撑著面具睡
我心力交瘁

明明流泪的时候
却忘了眼睛怎样去流泪
明明后悔的时候
却忘了心里怎样去后悔
无形的压力压得我好累
开始觉得呼吸有一点难为
开始慢慢卸下防卫
慢慢后悔慢慢流泪

男人哭吧哭吧哭吧不是罪
再强的人也有权利去疲惫
微笑背后若只剩心碎
做人何必惊得那么狼狈
男人哭吧哭吧哭吧不是罪
尝尝阔别已久眼泪的滋味
就算下雨也是一种美
不如好好把握这个机会
痛哭一回
不是罪

夜的诗人：“
It's tough to be a man in Singapore.

-You need not be too handsome, but you got to be rich.
-You need to be 'Man', but you also need to be sensitive.
-You need to be both a bastard and a saint; She wants to date a bastard, but marry a saint.
-You need to display gentleman-ness, but you still got to remember gender equality.
(i.e. Please continue to pay for her meals, open the car door for her to enter and exit, carry her oh-so-heavy handbag for her and don't complain of looking sissy. However, you shall relinquish your priviledge of higher starting pay and better promotion chances. And please, carry on protecting the country for all of us.)
-You need to work hard to provide for your family, but you also expected to share the house chore's work load.
-You need not breast feed your baby, but you are expected to bottle feed and change the soiled nappies.
-You need to listen to your significant half's opinions, but you are also expected to be decisive and make the decision yourself.
-You must not leave her for another girl, because you will be called a heartless cad. If she leaves you for another guy, that's because you are a heartless cad.

You tried, but in your children's eyes, you only score C-. In women's eyes, you are just trash.

In the meantime, just bare with all the male bashing.
”

凡人歌

2005-07-02T12:56:00.000+08:00

<凡人歌> 词曲：李宗盛原唱：李宗盛

你我皆凡人生在人世间
终日奔波苦一刻不得闲
既然不是仙难免有杂念
道义放两旁利字摆中间

多少男子汉一怒为红颜
多少同林鸟已成分飞燕
人生何其短何必苦苦恋
爱人不见了向谁去和喊冤

问你何时曾看见这世界为了人们改变?
有了梦寐以求的容颜是否就算是拥有春天?

夜的诗人：“
Working life can be so tiring, that you could return home and have no energy left to care about other stuff except your primate need for food and shelter. Today marks the end of holiday part time work, and the real beginning of holidays.

Bodai boji kanna promoted from 'shirt and vest' to 'shirt and blazer'. First time feel that I must take a picture of myself in uniform ... But well ... the excitement wore off with the tiredness from shooing people off the corridors, asking them not to put their feets on the seats in front, running up and down the stairs catching buggers taking photographs with their flashlights on ... etc 吃力不讨好 saigangs that high-ranking/paid will never need to do. Nobody likes confrontation loh, not at the frontline anyway. It's been such a long time since I have ever been abused at, for soo many times, in such a short period of time. It doesn't help that the voices over the walkie would otherwise suggest that there is nothing they would do to diffuse the situation. Well, I will just think of the choices I had and the money I will ultimately make ... then I just tell myself 2 letters; 'LL'. At the very least, managed to make friends with fairly good looking female collegues.

Found a new love in badminton lately. Put in financial commitment into this new love already, so must maintain this 'passion' like a fire by playing more often. Something like what bicycling did to me in year 1. Must psycho Count Dooku to commit financially also.

要放假去了，离开城市喧哗和烦恼。渴望旅途愉快 =)
”

大雨

2005-06-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

<大雨> 作词:陈建常歌手:娃娃

说真的我不是故意
看见你和她在街头伫立
我在犹豫该不该逃避
还是让你看见我在这里

天空间飘来的雨
滴滴洒落在我心里
我在怀疑该不该躲你
该不该躲这场雨

大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的没有主张
带我到没有爱情的地方哦
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的失去方向
带我到没有爱情的地方

夜的诗人：“
It's been quite a while since it rained, and for it to rain on this Saturday morning feels really great. Coz you can 赖床 for all you care. I have clocked a total of 14 hours of sleep today; 8 regular sleeping hours + 2 hours post breakfast re-entrant + 4 hours nap. I forsee I gonna have serious trouble sleeping later tonight.

Went for the beer survey after lunch. I got seriously confused by the questions the interviewer asked after the tasting session. Her questions were so long, and always repeating for different situations. So there were number of times I thought to myself, didn't she just asked me the same thing moments ago? I knew my judgment was getting impaired haa .. but the beer was nice, and she was distracting. Also for the first time in my life, I am paid to drink, with the company of a lady.

Been forcing myself to listen to YES93.3, because I find myself growing to like the Love97.2 that is the station my dad listens to, rather loudly, at home. Sigh 情歌总是老的好. Share with you guys this retro hit, 大雨.
”

猜心

2005-06-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

<猜心> 词:十一郎原唱：万芳

四方屋里什么都没有
只有被你关进来的落寞
你在墙角独坐
心情的起落
我无法猜透

握你的手却被你推落
惊见你眼中翻飞的寂寞
问你心想什么
微扬的嘴角
有强颜的笑

这样的夜热闹的街
问你想到了谁紧紧锁眉
我的喜悲随你而飞
擦了又湿的泪与谁相对

夜的诗人：“
我并非阅人无数，不过在一定程度上，大概可以猜得出熟人会如何对一件事做出反应。不过，要参透人心，真的还是不容易。

无论是在army玩政治游戏、朋友之间的误会、工作场合里面的勾心斗角、儿女私情，皆因有猜疑所以变得复杂。再加上不是每个人都愿意坦白，听者也可能私自先下了定论，所以解释也不一定容易被接受。更遭的是，‘下属’不理解‘上属’的用意和困难，以为‘上属’懒惰或故意刁难。Haiz ... 如果我有一颗照心镜，那该多好。我曾经想过，如果上帝问我要什么superpower的话，我会求他给我能看透人心的超能力。就像Mel Gibson 演的那部戏，'What Women Wants'一样。

毕竟，女人心海底针。女人们，如果你想让男人为你忐忐忑忑的话，就故意不回复他的SMS。让他缺乏一下安全感，让他陷入猜心的陷阱，让他不知所措却裹足不前。令伯就连续‘中招’几次了。不过，要有条件才可以这样玩hor，有warning过了har。
”

她来听我的演唱会

2005-06-20T01:23:00.000+08:00

<她来听我的演唱会> 曲:梁文福词:黄中岳原唱：张学友

她来听我的演唱会
在十七岁的初恋第一次约会
男孩为了她彻夜排队
半年的积蓄买了门票一对
我唱得她心醉我唱得她心碎
三年的感情一封信就要收回
她记得月台汽笛声声在催
播我的歌陪着人们流泪
嘿陪人们流泪

她来听我的演唱会
在二十五岁恋爱是风光明媚
男朋友背着她送人玫瑰
她不听电话夜夜听歌不睡
我唱得她心醉我唱得她心碎
成年人分手后都像无所谓
和朋友一起买醉卡拉ok
唱我的歌陪着画面流泪
嘿陪着流眼泪

我唱得她心醉我唱得她心碎
在三十三岁真爱那么珍贵
年轻的女孩求她让一让位
让男人决定跟谁远走高飞
嘿谁在远走高飞
我唱得她心醉我唱得她心碎
她努力不让自己看来很累
岁月在听我们唱无怨无悔
在掌声里唱到自己流泪
嘿唱到自己流泪

她来听我的演唱会
在四十岁后听歌的女人很美
小孩在问她为什么流泪
身边的男人早已渐渐入睡
她静静听着我们的演唱会

夜的诗人：“
Saw an article on buskers in Singapore in the Sunday Times. Quite a big write up on them, on how it ended up with the physically disabled being the mainstay of those busking.

Looks like I have found myself an alternative besides being a rat =P

My progress on the guitar have stagnated, again. Getting a breakthrough is not easy and maintaining form requires lots of dedication. Unfortunately, the little tricks I discovered have already turned stale and I am still unable to replicate the subtleties in nice songs that made them touching. I want to learn ‘她来听我的演唱会’ by 张学友 and all it's bits of magic. I also want to learn ‘那就这样吧’ by 动力火车，‘最爱的人不是你’ by 郑中基, ‘爱我别走’ by 张震岳 and even ‘关怀方式’ in their most splendid form. I think ... mastering the magic in these songs will mean I would be concert accompaniment standard. At least, I might be able to earn more from busking with better skills. Hmm ... maybe I will ply my trade at the City Link Mall ... or at the Esplanade tunnel ... no people busking there the last time I went there.

Although not exactly 我的演唱会, I thought of the 木船performance with Xing N Strum. 她、她们、他们来听演唱会。
”

下辈子别再做女人

2005-06-18T12:14:00.000+08:00

<下辈子别再做女人> 作词:易家扬原唱：梅艳芳

女人，我亲爱的姐妹们
你经过千山万山之后得到了怎样的男人？
辛苦了女人
疗伤是你的本能
与其在回忆之中心疼
还不如早一些清除伤痕？

下辈子别再做女人
我们这一生苦的很
别为了一个吻你也肯去爱上某一个负心人
下辈子别再做女人
快乐的时间少的很
在爱情中打滚谁是你最后的爱人？

夜的诗人：“
Love 97.2 is full of pleasant surprises for those born in the early 80s, when Hong Kong was THE entertainment scene.

这次不能不承认，时间真的不留人。Anita 离开我们都差不多两年了。Count Dooku 又要过生日了，失恋也快4年了。世界上只剩一个人叫我‘哥’，其他人都无情地升我职为‘老板’或‘uncle’了。

听女人说，男人总是错在三样事；花心、无耻、不负责任。相信新加坡女人一定还有很多对本地男子的不满，都不懂到底哪里得罪了她们，竟惹来如此不必要的抨击？

不过想来想去，还是觉得女人比较难做。生活各个层面都比较吃亏。有下辈子的话，我也不要做女人。
”

花蝴蝶

2005-06-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

<花蝴蝶> 词:林利南曲:游鸿明原唱: 游鸿明

当你爱一个人最深可以到哪里
感觉上我对你已经到超乎想像的地方
等待呵护一朵绽开的玫瑰
有一天却要面对她会凋谢和枯萎
花散四溃只留下一地的凄美

有人在找有人要逃
有人在灯红酒绿四处落脚
请你不要流连夜店拥抱
只为了短暂欢笑到处停靠

天知道多煎熬
我在伤心孤岛无处可逃
只是不要你再拈花惹草
过去每分每秒
过去每分每一秒
难道只证明情比纸薄

新世纪的徵兆月下老人已老
红线的安排让人苦恼
连爱也无法代表

夜的诗人：“
It's been years since I went clubbing on my own accord willingly. I went to one recently just to return a favour.

I've grown sick of perspiring in a cold, dark and stuffy (with ciggy smoke) room with crocodiles swimming past me all the time. You know the feeling when you finally crawl home with loads of ciggy and alcohol smell, deodourant and parfum, sweat and heaven-knows-what-muck in your hair and clothes, which you would die die try to wash off before you wash out on the bed.

Monetarily, it is never the $12 entrance with 1 free drink only. I always ended up buying more drinks, or pop over to another spot, and the final blow is the midnight taxi fare back. When I was serving my country, money is not too big a problem. But when I am value-adding myself in the uni, every cent counts.

And to all the nice girls out there, it is fine to go clubbing. But if you think it is all clean fun out there, I urge you not to think that way; coz all guys are bastards. Don't waste yourself and subject yourself to unneccessary touchy feely. Don't expect to find 天长地久 there. To all the girls who ‘甘愿’, try not to regret.

In the end, I think a party is only fun when you know everybody there, and everybody is celebrating some meaningful event. Plus the drinks are not diluted by too much syrup/soft drinks/ice, and anybody who smokes do so outside.
”

失眠夜

2005-06-14T01:34:00.000+08:00

<失眠夜> 曲词:陈容森原唱：张学友

还记得初次相约
手牵着手一起赏月
和你度过短短的一夜
盼望时间能多些

让我拥有多一个夜
让你也能够了解
我的心情内心的世界
我的感觉

C:总是在一个失眠的夜
我就会盼望你的出现
你有美丽温柔的双眼
我可以看见

就是在一个这样的夜
我就会对你特别思念
我愿意抛开身边所有的一切
爱你多些

还记得初次相约
肩并着肩一起谈天
和你共度最美的感觉
盼望时间能慢些

让我拥有每一个夜
不管是月圆月缺
只要是有你就有一切
浪漫的夜

夜的诗人：“
I always get very upset with sleepless nights, or nights where my sleep had been rudely robbed by acts of inconsideration. Because I know the next morning I will feel like crap and wouldn't have the spirit to do whatever I have set out to do. Also, my mind will set itself free to think of many things. The other reason why I hate 失眠夜s, is the incessant bed tossing and then checking the clock repeatedly, only to find that mere minutes have trickled past.

I guess urban dwellers are so distracted and occupied by activities that they hardly get a quiet time. Television and radio stations run 24/7, internet will always find you someone who is still awake around the globe, and in Singapore, there are nuts who club till their office opens again. For me, anything lesser than the psychological level of 7 hours of sleep per night, is inhumane. As a under-acheiving undergraduate, maybe I should be more 'inhumane', and drink even more coffee.

The sense of emptiness and loneliness when you toss in your bed can be unbearable. You don't want to wake up and do something more meaningful than tossing because that would mean you will ultimately sleep less, and wake up even more tired. You try to coax yourself to sleep, but it never seem to work. Then you try again to get out of the bed to find something to do, but you decided against it because you are too lazy to do so. Finally, you start to think and imagine, you get more awake, and lose even more sleep. The emptiness will hit you like a truck and then the loneliness will bowl you over like a tank.

Sometimes letting your mind run wild can be fun. You can do things you will never do in real life. I went out with the girl you like. I made mazy runs at the defenders, turn around them, let rip a screamer right into the top corner of the goal. I was celebrated and congratulated for your efforts contributed. I drove in a F1 race. Imaginations can also make a dip dramatically, and I broke my foot from a bad tackle. I did my best but got screwed for a cock-up beyond my control. The girl I fancy tells me that I am a nice guy but we should just be friends.

Nonetheless, I've found the formula to prevent sleeplessness; do a 10-hour ushering assignment for a musical, making sure it involves no sitting on the job. If my other half has to stand for long hours for her job, I will massage her calves everynight she returns home. Or buy a iChair or iPamper thingy for the calves. They should invent some massage thingy and then call it iShiok, only sold in Singapore because only we know the word 'shiok'. Hmmm ... ermm ... maybe can only sell to adults.

Well .. people who stayed over or bunked in with me will know I deprive other people of sleep with my 50-piece orchestra aka 5-tonner. I've found a profound name for it, it's called sleep apnea. I'm really sorry ... I couldn't help it.”

你快乐所以我快乐

2005-06-10T20:20:00.000+08:00

<你快乐所以我快乐> 作词:林夕原唱：王菲

你眉头开了
所以我笑了
你眼睛红了
我的天灰了

啊...天晓得既然说
你快乐于是我快乐
玫瑰都开了
我还想怎么呢？
求之不得求不得
天造地设一样的难得
喜怒和哀乐
有我来重蹈你覆辙

你头发湿了
所以我热了
你觉得累了
所以我睡了

天晓得不问为什么心安理得？

夜的诗人：“
A hot and humid afternoon drove me to pick up 'The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy' at the neighborhood's library earlier than I would want to.

Today should be marked as 'relief' for me, because as of today, my major commitments with the organisation has ended. According to the Career Guidance Workshop, I now have more bragging rights (to any potential employers) in regards to my leadership experiences. Not that I am proud of it or anything. I myself is not very sure if the tenure, and the event as well, should be counted as successful or not. Of course the staffs were glad it went through smoothly. Actually they cannot be bothered with the quality of it anyway, as long as it was 'trouble-free' for them. Well, at least they were the only ones who showed some kind of gratitude and appreciation. Oh, and 'Eric' and a few of them as well.

I am wondering why do I still feel like crap when all the saigang were over and done with. Why is it that I don't feel gratified after the core papers, the release of the their results, the GE exams and then finally this camp? Am I numbed already? I realised I haven't felt happy for a long time liaoz. And I'm not the only one. Ede says he plays soo much computer games just to fill up the emptiness in his time, not exactly because he finds joy in them. I searched for things that made me happy, but they didn't quite work the same way anymore. 梁静茹 manages to offer some consolation, but already not quite the same thing. Hmm .. maybe I am hard to please bah. But I really haven't felt so lost and low for a long time liaoz.

Of all the places and people, I learned how to play this song, at the camp, from a staff who only listens to English songs and jams Coldplay.”

你喜欢的会有几个

2005-06-05T00:33:00.000+08:00

<你喜欢的会有几个> 词曲:周华健原唱：周华健

我的眼睛叫做迷惑
我的心情叫做失落
我的愿望叫做解脱
我的眼泪叫做诉说

按奈不住叫做脆弱
呐喊很久叫做沉默
承受不了叫做寂寞
我的现在不知所措

你喜欢的会有几个
是一个二个还是很多很多
你喜欢的会有几个
是二个三个还是更多更多
你喜欢的很多很多
有没有我?

夜的诗人：“
自信往深谷里坠落，要重新把它寻回，并非易事。
友人勿必担心，起因并非红颜所致。

一首很棒的歌，述说着无奈，和竞争所带来的痛。
它让我和Count Dooku，感同深受。

其实一首歌，无论是谁先唱，谁后来翻唱，都不重要。因为只要它在对的时候，先给你感动，那么它就是最好听的版本了。”

王八蛋

2005-06-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

<王八蛋> 作词：陶吉吉/娃娃原唱：陶喆

把你的快乐建在我的痛苦上
当我在哭的时候你坐在那边笑
你这个没有心的王八蛋
你会有一天后悔你会有一天后悔

在我的伤口上面洒盐巴
跟银行经理说我信用差
你看不顺眼你就开口骂

我的心好像有颗大的石头
我的头好像原子弹要爆炸
我的梦好像破了洞的气球
我真的好倒霉你会有一天后悔

你忌妒我的车子就是比你ㄆㄚ
你笑我考试考得比你差
你吃不到你又特别哈
你会有一天后悔不要得意你会后悔
你会有一天后悔

夜的诗人：“
多数人在成长过程中，一定有听过类似的勉励；
“长大后，要做一个有用的人。”

我在NTU的时候，就了解了这一点，也看清了人性不是很美丽的一面。

住hall难免要参与大大小小的活动，当然认识别人也是从那里开始。有时候，这一些活动需要参与的学生卖票、卖tibits、有啊没有的小东西、情人节卡片、花等等等。Then，本来不是很熟的人会突然和你很friendly。干案方式通常如下；他/她会先登门造访或者MSN/ICQ你，假假聊天聊地，然后很顺其自然地问: "我在这个这个project, 需要做canvassing, 你跟我买一个这个这个啦，好不好？很便宜的啦。外面。。。"

还有一次，有hall的女生bodai boji MSN 我。也好，陪她聊聊天啰。说着说着，“你的MSN nick上的歌词是不是梁静茹的什么什么歌？很好听leh，send我leh.” 好啊，没问题。Send了之后，就了无音讯。

有用的人，在学校也是会有很多‘朋友’的。难怪我的‘朋友’不多，因为我没有notes借你，tutorial跟lab也好不到哪里，熟人都懂我没有什么‘好料’可以offer。衰在考试前夕，要睡觉之前，不是很熟的‘朋友’打电话来问东问西。平时不烧香就算了，好歹也要去抱佛脚吗，你来抱我的脚干吗？

所谓，“无事不登三宝殿”就是这个意思。

”

勇气

2005-05-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

<勇气> 词:光良原唱：梁静茹

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

夜的诗人：“Inspiration is like beautiful women; They are hard to come by, and once their prescence expires, they won't come again.

Been inspired by various sources within a span of a few days. The first being a newspaper report on a group of ladies (all Singaporean!) in their fifties climbing Mt Kilimanjaro (5898M). And between them, the various members have climbed other mountains all over the world like Elbrus, Aconcagua, Kinubalu ... etc

zbNOW 26/5/2005

And mind you ... they all hold administrative posts and are all married with kids. I really admire their courage to even come up with such a proposition, and then their mental strength to complete such a feat. Wahh .. really hero leh. Anyway, I wonder what were their husbands' and their families' first reactions to their idea.

The next source of inspiration, will surely fascinate Mr X as well. Mr X and I got acquainted first through volunteer work, and then through our love for biking. I got my 2B first, but he got his bike first, and also his 2A first. He would surely get his Class 2 ahead of me liaoz.

Long Way Round. By Ewan Mcgregor and Charley Boorman.

These 2 good friends went on a ride aross the globe. And yes, he is the same Ewan Mcgregor who acted in Moulin Rouge and Star Wars. I have also toyed with the idea of riding around the world, but I figure it could never ever happen. Mr X is the other person who have mentioned before he would love to ride around the world on his dream bike, Hayabusa.

Similar to the ladies in fifties, these blokes have a fledging career to tend to and respective families to care and provide for. Somemore at the time of their trip, their kids are still fairly young.

I don't think I could ever pull off a stunt like that. How did they come up with the resources and heart to do this, given their age and marital status? What if I went broke on a trip like this? Then my family will suffer as well. What if I seriously injure myself? (I am less afraid of dying) What if nobody wants to employ me when I am back? Man ... it sure takes lots of courage to push this through ... hats off to these two dudes.

I would think that a marriage would put an end all these 'madness'. No more bumming around, no more adventure trips .. everything would revolve around the family instead of your own dreams.

This book is very nice to read. Ewan and Charley took turns to narrate the whole trip as if it is a diary. Any avid, oppressed biker and naturally-born-traveller (aka yaohui) would clearly identify with this book. It isn't only a logbook of events and happenings. It recorded the adventures, frustrations and the reflections. Let me cut you an excerpt that could illustrate this:

"The best part of the impromptu skinny-dip was that we had shaken off our obsession with keeping to the schedule. We wouldn't have stopped at that river a week or so earlier, when there was an overriding feeling that we had to keep going, come what may. But we'd come to realise that keeping to planned mileage was pointless if we didn't experience anything along the way. We were three and a half days behind schedule but it didn't matter any more. The days were merging into one another. The experiences felt deeper and just as intense, but less pointed. I was taking fewer photographs and talking less about what we had seen and done each day because I no longer felt like a tourist or a traveller. The journey had become my life."

”

我是有钱人

2005-05-23T20:25:00.000+08:00

<我是有钱人> 曲词:任贤齐原唱：任贤齐

我没有金银财宝汽车洋房
也没有很多money存在银行
但是我有爱你的心
好多好多装得满满的满满的一箱
你不要紧张
你听我慢慢讲
只要你在我的身旁
我就是那全世界
最有钱的人

吃不到山珍海味鱼翅鲍鱼
我只有剩菜剩饭放在冰箱
但是我有绝对的信心
可以把你养得白白又胖胖
我没有说谎
你给我回去好好想想
不论你在什么地方
我都是你冬天里
温暖的太阳

身上没 gucci prada chanel lv
也没有 adidas reebok puma nike
但是我有绝对的勇气
可以为你上刀山下油锅去
我是说真的
我发誓我不是随便讲讲
因为你在我的身边
我已经是全世界
最有钱的人

夜的诗人:"
Since it was such a humid afternoon today, I took my baby on new shoes out for a ride. I went to explore some of the places near home, but had no chance to venture into.

I have long known that Orchard Rd is a 20 minutes bus ride away, but I didn't know how close my place is to Orchard until today. I think 20 minutes was all I took for me to ride, via Tanglin Rd, to Orchard Rd where SingPost is. Well, I didn't want to ride into Orchard Rd without style, so I turned back into Tanglin Rd, to continue exploring that place.

The last time I've been to Tanglin area, was with my Medical Centre's minibus. We were going to MMI (some sort of army medical institute) to pick up some stuff that would eventually help people downgrade. My impression was, that area is rich man's place. The houses there were huge and beautiful. Furthur in, the houses there had a pre-war British-occupied look, i.e. they had a unique architectural style that was not built again in these post-colonisation days.

When I am finally done with the insides and on my way to the other end, I saw something which made me depressed for a moment. I saw, what I thought to be repulsive, all in one eye shot. I saw inside this mansion, 3 Ferraris (one of them is the Enzo!! Total $4 million), Pagani Zonda (my goodness!! $2 million dollars!!) and a Lamborghini Murcielago (waah!! $1.5 million!). Oh man ... I was dumbstruck with what I stumbled upon. All of them had car plate with the number 3, except for the Enzo, which had no car plate. I figure that it does not have one because it is a left-hand drive, so it could not be registered to be driven in Singapore. I was almost staring at them until I realised that there was a CCTV pointing at me. I shall call this place, Too Ridiculous Place.

Here I am, on my 2 wheeled baby, worth a total of $420, cracking my head to find $2k to finance my trip to Tibet, looking at a garage worth a whopping $7.5 million. And despite being a country of equal opportunities, we still have people who use candle light at night because they could not afford to pay for electricity. Something is .. really wrong. What a crazy world, this is. "

Something stupid

2005-05-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

Something Stupid
Written by: Carson Parks, Originally sang by: Frank Sinatra
Cover version by: Robbie Williams (featuring Nicole Kidman)

I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you

I can see it in your eyes
You still despise the same old lines
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you
For me it's true
And never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever
lines to say
To make the meaning come true
But then I think I'll wait until the evening gets late
And I'm alone with you

The time is right
Your perfume fills my head
The stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you
I love you...

夜的诗人：“
As you guys might have already long heard before, what you say online can be used against you. There's this stat board scholar who landed himself in hot soup because of his racist comments on his blog. There's also this poor American guy who thought that the guy named in initials on a colleague's blog, was actually he himself. He wanted to sue her for revealing about their tryst, but is told by his lawyers that his chances of winning is low. Quite a guy ah ... had the girl, and then want her to pay for it.

I am always curious about Mr Dooku's BGR status, because I think that he is a really good chap with a badly broken heart and I wonder if he ever recovered. Coincidently, he was one of the 3 out of 4 mahjong players that night who is a "有了过去，没了未来的男人". So when I enquired about it, he sound pretty awkward when he said he is 'inactive'. 天蓬元帅 crapped so much that I knew he had nothing real to say. Kokky said he is 'inactive' as well. I got away with it coz nobody asked haha. Actually '土地公' tried , but I must have been a politician in my previous life if I ever had one, and I must have died in a spectacularly executed assasination.

I have said something stupid twice already. I wish the third one never comes, I wish.”

没有烟抽的日子

2005-05-21T18:42:00.000+08:00

<没有烟抽的日子> 词:王丹原唱：张雨生

没有烟抽的日子没有烟抽的日子
我总不在你身旁
而我的心里一直以你为我的唯一的
唯一的一份希望

天黑了路无法延续到黎明
我的思念一条条铺在
那个灰色小镇的街头
你们似乎不太喜欢没有蓝色的鸽子飞翔矮

手里没有烟那就划一根火柴吧
去抽你的无奈
去抽那永远无法再来的一耧雨丝喔～

在你想起了我以后
又没有抽烟的日子喔～

夜的诗人：“
‘土地公’ could not understand why people who are stressed in the armed forces pick up smoking. I could understand the attraction of, and the craving to find relief in inhaling and exhaling pollutants. I just don't understand how did relatives of the apes discover the thrill of rolling dried leaves and burning them at one end would give them the high.

Finally caught Bridget Jones' Diary 2 on DVD and found compelling reasons why people still smoke despite knowing that smoking is bad for health;
[Mr Jones] Ciggy?
[Bridget] No. No thanks. I've given up again.
[Mr Jones]Oh. What a shame, I find them useful. I take great comfort in the fact that they might kill me before things get worsed.

”

Heaven Knows

2005-05-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

Heaven knows by Rick Price

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up 'til I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's so far away
It just keeps gettin' stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Chorus: Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so?

Heaven knows
Heaven knows

夜的诗人：“
THE song to learn for all people learning to play the guitar. Quite 'useful' hee ...

Somethings have been bothering me lately. I am starting to re-evaluate the measurements that I have taken so far. I have began to re-ponder how much do the things I used to value mean to me, and would they carry on to be the important values that I hold close to my heart? I find myself asking, 'At what price?'.

It all started with the communication module that taught resume writing. That module taught us how to emphasize our ECA acheivements to show our capabilities to handle the job we are applying for, especially when we do not have any working experience. Now, there's nothing wrong in principle with joining ECAs, or joining many ECAs for that matter. But what I want to ask myself is, what would I forgo, what would I sacrifice, and did I do them all for my resume?

Concensus with close friends agreed that a particular friend of ours will have a perfect resume. He had good records in his ECAs, near perfect academic performance, and is constantly involved in high profile projects. Above it all, he is a scholar, without any bond obligations from the scholarship board. What more can a company ask for in a job candidate? I won't be surprised if he is head hunted and gainfully employed before he graduates. So what did he gave up, that warrants a mention here? I think in his pursuit in academic and activity glories, he gave up what it meant to be human. I think he forgot the fact that things change, so do people, and nobody's perfect. He seemed to have taken perfection for granted, and everybody else is not putting in enough effort. He is the yardstick to measure up to, the personnel every company wishes to have, the man I would hate to work with.

Back to the point about the price paid for a good resume, I thought of the fact that sports and arts can florish only if a country (or a household in our context) is well to do. Whether or not a family is rich or not, sports and arts will still exist, but the limit of success is usually determined by the financial prowess of the family. I would think that, a well to do household, would be more capable and willing to finance the costs incurred to pursue excellence in sports or arts. Similarly, a family which does not have any financial woes, or even relationship problems, would be able to let their children to do more involved in ECAs. As the saying goes, 'There is no free lunch in this world.' Indeed, someone else has already paid, paid for the freedom from working part time while studying fulltime. I didn't realise how important this point is, because I myself have always taken this 'cost' as granted. The prospect of dropping all extra curricular activities and personal enjoyment to go work part time to defray cost of living, was sooo close to be realised. If you could pay to remove all possibilities of this prospect realising, how much would that perfect resume cost then?

Of course, life's journey does not stop at getting yourself the first job.

It was meant to be a joke at first, somehow, it echoed a fear in my heart. I was having 'home-cooked' dinner by ‘灶神’ at his gf's hostel room. After dinner we watched TV together. I forgot what sparked off this conversation about what sort of lifestyle we wanted to live. A laidback attitude? A yuppie? A corporate high flyer? I wanted to be one that has a laidback attitude to life. A life that valued freedom, plenty of family time and personal fulfillment. And I joked that, I was afraid that my future mother-in-law would despise and look down on me. Because a laidback chap would have no place in the management, then he would also not able to afford a bigger house, a car, or treat the in-laws at a posh restaurant like her siblings' husbands could. Then it struck me that it might really be true. What if one day my mother-in-law say things like she regretted marrying her daughter to a bum?? Or things like this son-in-law of hers is so unambitious. Worse still, during the Chinese New Year, I have to chauffeur her to the relatives' place and then she complains that my mode of transport is so squeezy! Kanna looked down, compared, and then kanna complained! Sigh ... is Singapore too status concioused, or is it that I think too much?

Well, I still can go be the Type-A, 'go-getter' types; grabbing every opportunity to work, doing everything that pleases my superiors, chasing the next paper qualification that I qualify to take. But at what expense? At whose expense? What would I have sacrificied to gain all that? I would definitely lose precious and valuable family time. Maybe ... weight also? haa. My dreams to travel around the world while I am still young and able? What else? My health? Relationship with friends? And so far, I have only factored costs that I would incur. I have not yet considered the invisible costs it would incur on others. I would probably lose myself in this relentless chase. If I am not exactly a rodent, why should I take part in the rat race? Yet, I do not want to be paid peanuts; I am not a monkey!

In short, I am confused about what life is asking of me, and what I want out of it. I know there's a divine answer for it. I still know where to start to look for it. Heaven knows.

”

Norwegian Wood

2005-05-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

Norwegian Wood by The Beatles

I once had a girl,
Or should I say, She once had me?
She showed me her room,
Isn’t it good?
Norwegian wood.

She asked my to stay and told me sit anywhere,
So I looked around and I noticed there wasn’t a chair.
I sat on a rug
Biding my time, drinking her wine.
We talked until two,
And then she said,
‘It’s time for bed’.

She told me she worked in the morning and started to laugh,
I told her I didn’t, and crawled off to sleep in the bath.
And when I awoke, I was alone,

This bird has flown,
So I lit a fire,
Isn’t it good?
Norwegian wood.

夜的诗人：“
传说，挪威的森林是一片大得会让人迷路的森林。那种，人进得去却出不来的巨大原始森林。

I am finally done with 挪威的森林. So my conclusion is, 伍佰's rendition has nothing in close relation to the book. However, this book had a few correspondences to the song, 'Norwegian Wood' by The Beatles.

I have mixed feelings reading this book. 村上春树 can write really well, no doubt. Frankly speaking, I think he is a genius is describing the subtleties of loneliness, and how people arrive with the funny choices they will eventually make. So you actually pity them, instead of wanting to criticize them for the decisions they made. On the other hand, since anybody of any age who can read, can also gain access to this book easily, I think they should allow the screening of the uncensored version of 'Sex and the City' on national TV. Like musicians, writers can be rather psychotic. Writers have the luxury of being more explicit in their expressions.

Let me cut an excerpt of a passage that I liked very much:

[闭上眼睛，我暂时将自己委身于记忆中的黑夜。风声比往常听得更清楚了。那风并不算大，但却吹过我身子四周，留下了出奇鲜明的轨迹。一张开眼睛，夏夜的黑暗又更深了。

我打开罐盖，抓出萤火虫，将它放在突出约三公分的塔缘上。萤火虫自个儿似乎还搞不清楚状况。它在螺丝钉四周踉踉跄跄地转了一圈，然后迅速地跑过如疮痂一般的脱漆部分。它向右行了一阵，发现已是尽头时。又转向左行。好一会儿，它才攀上螺丝帽，然后就一直停在那儿。像断了气一般，它一动也不动。我靠在扶杆上，细细地端详那只萤火虫。我和它都静止了好一阵子。只有风吹过我们身边。黑暗中，榉木叶子互相碰撞着。

我等了又等。

许久许久，萤火虫才又飞了起来。好似想起什么一般，它忽地振翅飞起，只一瞬间它已经越过扶杆飞进黑暗中了。它似乎想把失去了的时光统统要回来一样，在水塔边飞快地画了个弧，又在那儿逗留一会儿，眼见那道光化入风中，这才向东飞去。

萤火虫消失之后，那道光的轨迹依旧在我心中滞留不去。闭上眼睛。那抹淡淡的光彷佛无处可归的游魂似的，在浓暗中不停地徘徊。

黑暗中，我几次伸出手去。但却什么也碰不到。那抹小小的光线在我指尖就快碰着的地方。]

”

夜夜夜夜

2005-05-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

<夜夜夜夜> 詞/曲：熊天平原唱：齐秦

想問天你在哪裡　我又想問問我自己
一開始我聰明　結束我聰明　聰明得幾乎的毀掉了我自己
想問天問大地　或者是迷信問問宿命
放棄所有　拋下所有　讓我漂流在安靜的夜夜空裡

你也不必牽強再說愛我
反正我的靈魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼湊　慢慢的拼湊
拼湊成一個完全不屬於真正的我

想問天你在哪里我想問問我自己
一開始我聰明結束我聰明
聰明得幾乎的毀掉了我自己

#想問天問大地或者是迷信問問宿命
放棄所有拋下所有
讓我漂流在安靜的夜夜空里#

*你也不必牽強再說愛我
反正我的靈魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼湊　慢慢的拼湊
拼湊成一個完全不屬於真正的我 (x2) *

repeat # *

@我不願再放縱
也不願每天每夜每秒漂流
也不願再多問再多說再多求我的夢@ (repeat)
我的夢

夜的诗人：“
I thought I would hate the presence of the karaoke machine at the kelong. It sort of ... spoils the overall rustic feel of the place. I'm also afraid that wannabes would sing through the night and I would not be able sleep. It didn't help that I sleep NEXT to the ktv 'lounge'.

Thank goodness for 'Pat'. She sang really well, so did her boyfriend as well. She sang while her bf got busy courting the sotongs. I think she could pass off as a lounge singer anytime. Drinking beer on the kelong, enjoying the incessant breeze and her singing is really some sort of 'high life'. She's quite a sporting babe, coz when the M'sia bengs wanted to listen to some Hokkien numbers, she gamely obliged and belted out many classic 黄乙玲's hits. And oh my ... she could sing so well in Cantonese and in Chinese as well. Most importantly, she did justice to all 梁静茹 songs she sang. Hmm ... no wonder nobody else dared to sing ... the 'ktv queen' was there ...

I must have heard this song before, but it probably didn't leave much impression on me, and I wouldn't have guessed its name correctly anyway. Luckily chiangkee is some sort of Chinese songs dictionary, or we can call him an encyclopedia instead. He explained that <夜夜夜夜> is so named, as it depicts the loneliness a heart-brokened lover feels in the deepest of the night. Great piece of work for both lyrics and music from 熊天平. Here's a live concert version by my favourite singer, 梁静茹.

This song was "Pat"'s last before I blacked out on my bed. The feeling was great to sleep on this song. It felt like eternity when she sang this song in my semi-conscious state, and when it ended, eternity suddenly felt so short.”

我爱夏天

2005-05-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

我爱夏天词:张国玺原唱:脱拉库

我我爱夏天
有漂亮美眉
我我爱夏天
因为他们穿的养眼

每到夏天我要去海边
海边有个漂亮高雄妹
只打电话不常见面我好想念
不知她会在哪个海边

我我爱夏天
有漂亮美眉
我我爱夏天
因为他们穿的养眼

每到夏天我要去海边
海边有个漂亮高雄妹
只打电话不常见面我好想念
不知她会在哪个海边

夜的诗人：“
Finally took a breather, and ran away from all the hustle and bustle of city living, and away from the undergrad's 'curse of no-life'. And I almost lost it all. I regretted bringing my handphone along. Otherwise, it would have been much better.

Went fishing with beng and chiangkee at the kelong.

Our catch? Impressive for beginners lah haha. But you really can appreciate the abundance of nature here, away from the cities.

The lonesome jetty stretching out into the South China Sea. The dangling colored lightbulbs contrasts with the dull wooden planks and the overcast skies.

We spent one afternoon at the Sibu island beach. It would have been much better, if not for the cloudy weather. At least it is pretty much unspoiled by the careless human touch. I still managed to see small fishes dashing across my legs, and also my own feet through the clear waters.

It happens every morning, but you will only be able to see it if you make an effort to.

Turned in early the first night, and that meant 9 plus at night. And without any human or mechanical intervention, I woke up the next day and caught the first glimpse of daylight. Sunrise and sunset are amazing stuff. They first catch you by surprise, and then they disappear before you know it.

Life was good until technology kept me close to home, and work. No wonder the Chinese have a saying, "夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏。". While I didn't get to text words like 'Wished you were here with me.', there was quite a bit of 'I'm not in S'pore now. I'd get back to you when I come back after the weekend.'

The best bit I remembered was the moment we reached the kelong. I took off my watch and kept it in my bag on purpose. It might be habitual, it might be ritual, it might also be a city-dweller's shackles, but I knew somehow, somebody would ask for the time. Chiangkee was the first one to do so and I replied,

It's time for us, to forget about the time, and enjoy the times we would have here. ”

轧车

2005-04-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

<轧车> 词：陈信宏/温尚翊原唱：五月天

是按怎阿花和阿娇拢无佳意我
我撇车技术一流
无人和我轧是按怎学校的老师拢无疼痛我
是不是ABCD看无卡憨就拢免教老爸老母归工底骂
喋喋喋念未知骂啥是按怎哪会按呢？
身边的问题一摊
这时阵上好来去轧车

作阵来轧车作阵来轧车
不管伊警察底抓不管父母底骂只要我引擎驱落
无人可当甲我轧
在这我最紧最ㄆㄚ

最大今日观众拢底打拍仔
逐家看我一个亲像Super Star
La La La La La La La La La La
愈骑愈紧愈爽我想欲唱歌
头壳底飞身躯底颤
风底吹我心底流汗是按怎那会这爽
要了解我的感觉
这时阵上好作阵来去轧车

夜的诗人：“第一天团，五月天！！
This is the first time I put up a Hokkien song, a rock song somemore. I think Hokkien rock is really cool. While Hokkien can sound really full of angst and grunge, sometimes vulgar, it can also be full of gentleness and sadness. When I get the chance, I will put up a 伍佰 Hokkien rock number.

In the height of exams, I managed to find time to race in the fictional streets of Bayview (read: NFS Underground II). Below is the machine I used to burn rubber:

Nissan 240SX - plus tons of modding:
- Turbocharger with cold ram air intake
- Brembo brake calipers
- 'Barracuda' GT wing
- 'Sweeper' Rear Bumper
- 'Strike' Side skirts
- 'Shadow' Front lips

aiyah ... and many others lah ... If I could, I would have removed all those ugly 'splashes' above the tyres and across the sides of the car. The game rates all these as style factor and without them ... you wouldn't be able to score points. Otherwise, with my subjective sense of beauty, they would be off my car. Hmm ... thinking of getting a new paint job for my car ... sort of starting to look dated now ...

The back view of the car, and the meter dials inside.

The smaller dial measures turbo boost, the tacho and the digital speedo on the right, and the NOS level in light blue around the bigger dial.

Sigh ... I said before, I am good at doing the wrong things at the wrong time. I think I must have excelled in it this time round. And I feel sort of guilty when 'Inter Milan' and '土地公' couldn't stop playing this whole afternoon. I hope they can make up for lost time and do well for the last paper this coming Wednesday."

最浪漫的事

2005-04-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

His 30-minute rule

MR ROBERT YEO, 84, cannot remember when was the last time he took a bus, let alone a car ride.

The sprightly man, who has been caring for his 82-year-old wife Yeo Mui Neo (above with Mr Yeo) since she lost her eye-sight to glaucoma 10 years ago, lives by a "30-minute rule".

He will only go to places-usually coffeeshops where all their meals come from-which are within a 30-minute walking distance from their one-room Toa Payoh flat.

"I can't leave her alone," he says.

Talking to the childless couple, it is impossible not to be moved by their love and the quietly dignified way they live.

He is her eyes, hands and legs. "He does everything for me. He's a very good husband," says Mrs Yeo, who is bedridden because of weak legs.

When she has to use the toilet, he has to lift and carry her from the bed to the wheelchair and back again.

Their relative, Mrs Molly Seow, 71, calls him a "superman". "He's a one-man show. He never complains. The minute she calls 'Bert', he'll be there next to her."

Mr Yeo has declined suggestions to place his wife in a nursing home, opting instead for regular visits by health professionals from Touch Home Care.

Asked if he ever feels burnt out or worries about the future, he says:"My greatest joy is taking care of her. I don't worry about tomorrow. We'll just take everything in our stride."

夜的诗人：“
I salute you, Mr Yeo!

The above article was adapted from the Life section of the Straits Times today, 27th April 2005. It was a dedicated section about old folks taking care of their other half, and the stresses they faced. I am sooo touched by the way Mr Yeo takes care of his wife. And he also plays the guitar to entertain his wife ... so romantic! haha. There's also another article of this old lady who plays the piano to entertain her husband who suffered from a stroke.

Nowadays where couples either split for little things or for cheating on one another, it is very inspiring to see these old couples so willing to self sacrifice and take care of one another. Don't you think, it's real love that's between them? It would be great if everybody's marriage are like theirs.

I pray that I have a marriage like the Yeo's.”

<最浪漫的事> 词：姚若龙原唱：赵咏华

背靠着背坐在地毯上
听听音乐聊聊愿望
你希望我越来越温柔
我希望你放我在心上

你说想送我个浪漫的梦想
谢谢我带你找到天堂
哪怕用一辈子才能完成
只要我讲你就记住不忘

我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊

我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝

爱我还是他

2005-04-26T12:30:00.000+08:00

<爱我还是他> 詞：娃娃 & 陶吉吉原唱：陶吉吉

黑暗中的我们都没有说话
你只想回家不想你回家
寂寞深的像海太让人害怕
温柔你的手
轻轻揉着我的发
你的眉眼说你好渴望我拥抱
你身体却在拼命逃 (每当爱变成了煎熬)
但欲望在燃烧

你爱我还是他
是不是真的他要比我好
你为谁在挣扎?

爱我还是他
就说出你想说的真心话
你到底要跟我还是他
爱爱爱......

这是不是命运对我的惩罚?
爱你也没办法
恨你也没办法

陷在这个漩涡只想挣脱它
拉住你的手
却让我也被拖下

爱我还是他
我宁愿听到残忍的回答
也不要再被耍

你爱我还是他
我为你找了一百个理由
我就是那么傻

爱我还是他
是否沉默代替你的回答
我应该明白吗?

爱我是他噢
你都已看不到我们的好
我还会心牵挂

你爱我还是他
是否沉默就是你的回答？
我们都别挣扎
去爱他

夜的诗人：“
可怜男孩和可爱女孩有一段，在可爱女孩的恋爱史里，
算是相当长的恋情。
可怜男孩百般依顺，细心爱戴与照顾。
可爱女孩刁蛮任性，却肯定有一种莫名让人容易原谅的魔力。

可怜男孩循规为国效劳。可爱女孩顺序升上大学。
可爱女孩结交男同学。
男同学明知可爱女孩有了可怜男孩，却要她做一个决择。
可爱女孩心里犹豫，可怜男孩让她自由作选择。
结果可怜男孩成为了名副其实的, 可怜男孩。

事过境迁，可怜男孩再也没有结交新欢；有了过去，没了未来。

夜的诗人身边有不少的‘可怜男孩’。他们经历的‘兵变’，在他们心里留下深深的烙印。其实一旦女方得犹豫后才做出决定的话，大概就可以放手让她走了。她的心已经动摇，你们之间的感情已不再稳定，或者，根本就没停留在你那儿过。

让她走吧，释放自己。
委曲求全，得到的又是什么呢？

大学生，读这么多书有什么了不起? 你有你不应该的地方。
她，也有她不应该的地方。”

忙与盲

2005-04-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

〈忙与盲〉词:袁琼琼张艾嘉原唱：张艾嘉

曾有一次晚餐和一张床
在什么时间地点和那个对象
我已经遗忘我已经遗忘
生活是肥皂香水眼影唇膏
许多的电话在响
许多的事要备忘
许多的门与抽屉
开了又关关了又开如此的慌张
我来来往往
我匆匆忙忙
从一个方向到另一个方向

忙忙忙忙忙忙
忙是为了自己的理想
还是为了不让别人失望
盲盲盲盲盲盲
盲的已经没有主张
盲的已经失去方向

忙忙忙盲盲盲
忙的分不清欢喜和忧伤
忙的没有时间痛哭一场

夜的诗人：“

Currently facing a serious lack of inspiration ...

A sudden brake from all those accelerating and pushing, really killed my engine. Now I don't feel like going back to the hectic life of waking up early and then studying till late into the night. Heard a radio clip on Class 95, about a guy describing himself for a blind date program. He described himself as a car,
"Single well groomed 'Porsche' - 1978 model, low mileage, high performance. Proven ability to perform and not wander off. Exterior in mint condition and warm, affectionate and sensitive in interior. Package includes humour, imagination and intelligence. Looking for a cheerful, affectionate, independent lady with confidence, humour and intelligence!"

I can't imagine the lengths guys can go to make themselves sound like something they aren't at all. How can anything proven to perform be of low mileage? Maybe there are many others of his type? Maybe he forgot to add 'high turnover rate' and 'low resale value'. I think only dumber factions of our fairer counterparts will fall for it. And I really can't take the part where he calls himself a 'Porsche'. He really thinks he is a black 'stud' from Stuttgart (think Porsche logo). Man ... then I can be 'Lamborghini' or a 'Koenigsegg' liaoz.

I thought I won't bitch online ... and here I am. It's all in the blood lah. I am born in the year of the dog.

Well ... looking forward to better times, can really help me tide over busy, difficult periods, and times when you couldn't decide why and for what you are working so hard for.

To do after the exams:
1. Back up all school work onto CDs and clear up my harddisk
2. Unpack my stuff I moved back from hall and clean up my room
3. Plan Tibet trip
4. Train for AHM
5. Finish the books 挪威的森林 and 未央歌
6. Plan and handover WSC stuff
7. Get Guan to help me setup home network
8. Cycle home, and maybe round island
9. Pay a visit to my alma mater
10. Catch 雪狼湖 and 五月天 concert.

I think my ten-things-to-do list is harder to acheive than Sammm's. So nobody's going to get to shoot me for not acheiving them. And as I write all these here, I wish I am at the Jonanthan Lee and Emil Chau concert. They must be still having a great time, right now.”

彩虹

2005-04-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

<彩虹> 词:阿信原唱：五月天

坐在浴缸里莲蓬头代替我哭泣像下雨
其实我不知道眼泪有没有流就像这故事
你有没有爱过我?
虚弱的窗帘留不住房里的黑夜也要走
清晨唤醒了我照亮昨夜的梦一直到这时候
才开始有一点懂

你的爱就像彩虹
雨后的天空绚烂却教人迷惑
蓝绿黄红 (你的输廓)
你的爱就像彩虹我张开了手 Oh 却只能抱住风

吻我离开我你就像出太阳下雨难捉摸
越是努力揣摩越是搞不懂只好慢慢承认
这故事叫做错

Oh 一层一层一层一层一层一层又一层层的迷宫我来不及回头
Oh 忽左忽右忽上忽下忽东忽西忽前忽后的折磨都是你的捉弄

吻我离开我你就像出太阳下雨难捉摸
越是努力挽留越是一无所有
只好慢慢期待雨后你的影踪

夜的诗人：“Today afternoon's rain can be described as torrential.

Looking out at the rain through TR2's big glass window with its big red curtain drawn apart, I pitied the construction workers opposite from where I am. They have to brave the elements of nature, the strenous and dangerous nature of work, to earn their dues that's barely enough. They then furthur save and scrimp over here, so that they can send the bulk of it home, to create a better future for their families. I feel sooo lucky to be under the protection of the glass windows, away from the lashing of the weather.

Today is the first time in my life that I have ever seen the full span of rainbow within one eye shot. What a feeling it was, to see Mother Nature showing that she also has a gentle side after the punishing rain. From the same window, I managed to catch the full arch of rainbow, from end to end, in it's maximum splendor. If the saying is true, I could find a pot of gold at the Nanyang Playhouse.

The only other time I was so excited about rainbows was when Hawx texted me while I happened to be on my way out of Tekong after one week of crap. He told me to look up into the sky for a ring rainbow. A ring rainbow is a rainbow that forms a full circle, just like a ring of many colors in the sky. Oh my goodness ... it was really beautiful and it certainly made my day. If he hadn't texted me about it, I would have missed one of the many nature's miracles which occurred just right above me.

Will look forward to the next downpour, just for the rainbows that might form after it.”

比我幸福，我是幸福的

2005-04-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

<比我幸福> 词：陈静楠原唱: 陈晓东

望着广场的时钟你还在我的怀里躲风
不习惯言不由衷沉默如何能让你都懂
此刻与你相拥也算有始有终
祝福有许多种心痛却尽在不言中

请你一定要比我幸福
才不枉费我狼狈退出
再痛也不说苦爱不用抱歉来弭补
至少我能成全你的追逐

请记得你要比我幸福
才值得我对自己残酷
我默默的倒数最后再把你看清楚
看你眼里的我好馍糊慢慢被放逐

放心去追逐你的幸福
别管我愿不愿孤不孤独都别在乎

夜的诗人：“In the most unthinkable situations, I sat through dinner with the radio playing Love 97.2FM. A listener was very upset that her long-time husband forgot about her birthday and called in to tell the deejay about it. The deejay did not comment much, and instead, she aired a call-in by another listener.

“我的老公现在和他弟弟的老婆住。”

“那。。。很复杂吧？”

“没有什么了啦，习惯就好咯。”

“就是说你已经看透了吧？”

“没有什么好看透的啦，就这样咯。”

I presume the above conversation is recorded, because the deejay continued, saying,

“我们常被一些我们以为是很大的事所困扰。比较起来，其实不算什么。”
and it ended there.

Under the most unimaginable cirumstances, I managed to sit through the whole NKF Charity Show. And of all the things said by the various stars to make you donate, I somehow managed to remember one said by 曹启泰.

“只要你看了以上的画面，你觉得自己比他们幸福，就请你们再拿起你们的手机，再播多一通电话捐款。”

Well ...
Be thankful and appreciative of what we have, and who we are now. There are many others who are far more worse-off than ourselves.

I still have a fairly intact and peaceful family.
I have never starved before. (obvious)
I somehow made it to the U. (I am still able to continue schooling in U)
I am still fairly healthy. (Although I need to lose weight)
I have enough to get by.

I should compare less, complain less and be contented.”

<我是幸福的> 词:姚若龙原唱：梁静茹

黄昏过后暖暖的晚风中
在小公园里头眼眶红了
看老公公和老婆婆在散步着
把手牢牢握着星星亮了
我觉得幸福就是这样的

几十年后你也变老公公我当你的拐杖
扶着你走眼睛花了
你老花眼镜就是我
把时间忘了慢慢走
美丽风景我为你转播不让你错过

能和你牵手我是幸福的
你就像温柔又顽固的石头
用心盖了座最美的城堡叫永久圈住我
不管过再久也会幸福的
我们都走过了动摇的时候
爱已变成树就算是有风会平息的
被懂我的人爱着我是幸福的
连沉默都能是交流
你总是能给我比我想的还要多我爱你
不做你的公主要做你的快乐

没时间

2005-04-10T19:45:00.000+08:00

<没时间> 词:李焯雄原唱：莫文蔚

没时间我没时间
一瞬间来到夏天
单身的地平线又转了一圈晴天终於出现转变
没时间想昨天就撕掉爱情那张褪色照片

没时间我没时间
要永远占据夏天
雨后的地平线晒乾了悲伤快乐不再搁浅转变
晒红我的只肩朝我的方向加速苦闷递减

为什么太多时间在抱歉
太少时间在缠绵
太多时间在抱怨
太少时间值得去怀念

没有你的今天唱一首歌消遣
快乐的声线多明显
勉强的诺言不实现

没时间我没时间
一瞬间来到夏天
心情的抛物线又转了一圈明天终於出现拒绝

没时间想昨天没时间想昨天不收集爱情的碎片
没时间想昨天没时间再想你忧郁的脸

夜的诗人：“ I have the unsurpassable capability of doing the wrong things at the wrong times.

At the height of the preparations for examinations, I 've
1. Written my first essay of the year (see my previous post)
2. Borrowed 2 books from the library ('挪威的深林' and 'Footprints:Tibet')
3. Finished watching the anime, 'Last Exile'. Totalling 26 episodes.
4. Watched the whole NKF Charity Show (and I am not proud to say, that I am good at resisting the repeated chants to dial the 1900 number)

As you could see, I have broken many of my own records for this year. I am also comtemplating to catch Emil Chau and Jonathan Lee on the 23rd Of April (in the middle of my exams!!) ... if there's anybody who want to go with me =)

The only right thing I did, was to move out of Hall.”

True Love

2005-04-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

True Love 词：姚谦原唱：蔡健雅

选择明天可能的爱
那一夜,他沈默从低潮关系逃开
一直到今天他还始终不明白
这样的决定到底该还不该

还记得那夜的悲哀
忍住泪关上门你故做坚强离开
然后安慰自己缘分自有安排
纵然心中充满了脆弱无奈

每个人都期待下次遇到真爱
才放弃的比珍惜还快
每个人都期待早点找到真爱
只可惜我们都一直到
有一天彼此怀念时才明白

我想我们不例外
在茫茫人海中寻找著合身的爱
好像童话里那拣贝壳的小孩
到最后才了解已错过了真爱

我们各自在生活里徘徊
只是夜深人静里会醒来
每当看著两人的合照时
心中还是有很多感慨
是不是我们下一次会遇到真爱？

夜的诗人：“It is almost the norm, or so we think it is, that people date people they love, and marry the person they love. We think it is only right, that you marry the person whom you truely love, and loves you in return. Well ... who wouldn't wish that could really happen to themselves? In fact, we might have taken the freedom to find love and be loved, for granted.

When I　moved home after 2 1/2 years in army camps both local and overseas, and another further 2 years in school hostels, I have started to eat take-away dinners again. There's this chicken rice hawker at a neighbouring housing block's coffee shop, who have been plying his trade there for as long as I can remember. He had a female helper, who 'promoted' to lady boss as his wife. I do not know the details, but I guess, he might have married her because he did not really have a choice, or they chose to stick together for 'convenience' sake. The reason I say 'convenience', is because he would not have the time to go socializing, or dating, for that matter.

Like many many people in this whole wide world, dating is a luxury. I guess, it is also the same in Singapore. We have seen reports that Singaporean men are 'buying' brides from other countries; Chinese, Vietnamese, Indonesians ... etc. These poor chaps had worked hard all their lives but have still remained not as well-to-do. Not considered 'desirable', 'dependable' and 'financially stable', such blokes can only turn to these foreign brides to look for 'love'. Let's not go into the choices our women make, but the situation these guys are in. I'm sure, these guys would have wanted to marry someone that they loved, or someone they liked. Or at least, there must be someone that they had fancied before.

There are scores of movies, which tells of the 'oh-so-familiar' story of forbidden love. The rich girl who cannot marry the pauper, the marriage agreement made by mothers pregnant at the same time, couples who overcome disapproval by parents ... etc. Actually, whether we like it or not, these stories continue to inspire many, and encourages filmmakers to keep shooting them, because they provide a getaway, a form of redemption from the real world for the movie goers. There are so many people in the world who do not have the chance to date or to look for true love. They can only depend on matchmaking, or arranged marriage, whether or not it is their preferred choice.

I got to know Mr N during BMT. Mr N is a very clever chap, and is also a devoted Muslim. At first, I thought he would be very modern and more liberal in his views in regards to love. I was surprised when he said that it is still common for Malays to have arranged marriage, even between couples who hardly knew each other. He added,

"You will really learn how to truely love one another in such a marriage, because you don't get the chance to first like someone, before you marry that person."

For the rest of us, we still must be prudent with our choices. It probably was her smile, or the way he makes you laugh that attracted you at first. But when we've realised that he/she is not the right one, don't complain too much. We are lucky to get to choose first.”

那年我们十七岁, 17 Again

2005-04-06T19:23:00.000+08:00

<那年我们17岁> 原唱：何润东

那年我们十七岁
最爱到海边聊些悲伤的字眼未来在口袋里面
小胖唱伤心的歌小明不停的抽烟
才刚开始的初恋动不动就说永远
总是以为时间一直停在那一年夏天
现实让我们不得不做些改变
我们像离开了起点只能用力跑向前
却来不及像青春说再见

那年我们十七岁爱情是我的一切
朋友就是全世界不懂什么是明天
那年我们十七岁笑那么直接狂野
泪留得不知不觉那是我最美丽的夏天

小黑拿到了学位瘦子寄来了喜帖
也许我早该知道永远不变的只是改变
翻开那些旧照片就好像回到从前
在心里面的里面永远停在那年的海边

夜的诗人：“偶然想起17岁时的情景。
ahh ... what a year that was, when I was 17 ... only 17”

17 Again by: Eurythumics

Yay though we venture through the valley of the stars
You and all your jewelry
And my bleeding heart

Who couldn't be together?
And who could not be apart?

We should’ve jumped out of that airplane after all
Flying skyways overhead
It wasn’t hard to fall

And I had so many crushes
That I couldn't feel them all...

And it feels like
I’m 17 again
Feels like I’m 17

Times might break you, God forsake you
Leave you burned and bruised
Innocence will teach you
What it feels like to be used

Thought that you’d done everything
You didn’t have a clue

And it feels like
I’m 17 again
Feels like I’m 17

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
I travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Yeah

普通朋友，天亮以后说分手

2005-04-05T19:44:00.000+08:00

<普通朋友> 词曲:陶喆原唱：陶喆

等待
我随时随地在等待做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问这是爱

我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败从天堂掉落到深渊多无奈
我愿意改变 (what can I do?)
重新再来一遍 (just give me a chance)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深叫我怎么能收手?

但你说I only want to be your friend, 做个朋友
我在你心中只是just a friend 不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
So I 我不能只是be your friend
I just can't be your friend no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友

夜的诗人：“ 男生在处理一段失败的感情这方面，有时表现得不在意、若无其事。其实，这并不代表他们是真的‘没事’。怎样说，都是血肉之躯，都会感觉痛的。

有一段时期，我超恨上面这首歌。因为它，太准了。
也感激它，因为再也没有一首歌，
能像它一样地表达每一个‘当时’的感受。 ”

〈天亮以后说分手〉词:娃娃原唱：信乐团

天亮以后说分手我不敢要你为我等候
天亮以后说分手是多情让人无情
走在那人生风沙
谁看见男人有血有泪？
哦～

天亮以后说分手你答应我绝对不回头
天亮以后说分手爱是不完美最美
心如刀割也沉默
是谁说男人无血无泪？
哦～

25 minutes

2005-04-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

25 Minutes by: Micheal Learns to Rock

After some time I’ve finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I’m searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I’m sorry ’bout the things I’ve done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn’t search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she’s crying while she’s saying this

Chorus:
Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I’m sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I’m going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than friends

Still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn’t search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she’s cried while she’s saying this

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said

夜的诗人：“Here's the occasional English song for those who eat potatoes as staple. =P

Anyway, heard '25 Minutes' again on Ed's car last weekend. Ooooh such great memories of this song. But ... this song is classified as retro already. Class 95 has already considered the 90s as retro. Only not so ago, the 70s and 80s was called retro. Now the songs that I used to grow up listening and hmm-ing to, is considered 'old' liaoz ... shucks ... growing old (and looking it) liaoz.

sigh ... I have been called 'uncle', 'boss' many times liaoz ... I am always approached for the bill when eating out with friends. I was also thought to be in year 3 or year 4 when I am only year 2 now.

When I was with Ed last weekend, he was meeting and telling someone on the phone that he saw 'the laojiao/laolang' arrive already. Having not seen 'the laojiao/laolang' before, that person alighted from his car on arrival, approached and said, 'Oh so this is the laojiao you are talking about ah?'.

xian 1/2”

眼泪

2005-04-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

〈眼泪〉词：黄国伦原唱：范晓萱

青春若有张不老的脸
但愿她永远不被改变
许多梦想总编织太美
跟着迎接幻灭
爱上你是最快乐的事
却又换来最痛苦的悲
苦涩交错爱的甜美
我怎样都学不会 ah ......

oh 眼泪
眼泪都是我的体会
成长的滋味
oh 眼泪
忍住眼泪不让你看见
我在改变
孤单的感觉
你从不曾发现
我笑中还有泪

oh 眼泪
眼泪流过无言的夜
心痛的滋味
oh 眼泪
擦干眼泪忘掉一切
曾有的眷恋

眼泪是苦
眼泪是伤悲
眼泪都是你
眼泪是甜
眼泪是昨天
眼泪不流泪

夜的诗人：“Stanley和Kelly过年的时候，说什么都不肯带小Issac出来和大家拜年。原因是小Issac很害怕陌生，只要到了和家里的环境或人不一样的地方，就会哭个不停。

在JP吃晚餐，看见小孩在隔壁餐桌又哭又闹，就想起我的野蛮小妹问小满的一个很衰的问题。那时小Zhikai刚出世，她就去问小满：“是不是已经开始后悔了？”。我在JP吃饭的时候，就和Sammm说：“我最怕小孩子哭了。”Sammm反问我，说：“那你不怕女孩子哭meh?　你比较怕小孩子哭还是女孩子哭？”

“女孩子哭的话可以哄。小孩子哭的话比较麻烦，因为通常哭的原因是什么都不知道．”

我的回答，是不是错了？
有时太坦白，不一定是好事。”

未央歌，挪威的森林

2005-04-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

〈未央歌〉词/原唱：黄舒骏

当大余吻上宝笙的嘴边
我总算了了一桩心愿
只是不知道小童的那个秘密
是否就是蔺燕梅
在未央歌的催眠声中
多少人为他魂萦梦牵
在寂寞苦闷的十七岁
经营一点小小的甜美

我的朋友我的同学
在不同时候留下同样的眼泪
心中想着朋友和书中人物间
究竟是谁比较象谁
那朵校园中的玫瑰
是否可能种在我眼前
在平凡无奇的人世间
给我一点温柔和喜悦

你知道你在寻找你的蔺燕梅
你知道你在寻找你的童孝贤
你知道你在你知道你在
你知道你在寻找一种永远

夜的诗人：“黄舒骏写的歌，多数的词都超级多。因为他的词很少有重复的部分，因为他的词很有分量，因为他想说的话很多。我至少删减掉了歌词中的一半，要不然，我想很多人都看不下去。‘未央歌’原来是一本小说，是黄舒骏学生时代必看的一本书。也许就像现今的 Harry Potter or Da Vinci's Code 一样。我试过从图书馆借一本来看，结果才不过两章，我就give up了。希望这个来临的假期，我能去看完它。写书的老人家刚在02年去世，‘未央歌’是他唯一的作品，却是对现代台湾文学的一大贡献。虽然书本身无法直接影响我，它却让我藉着一首很好的歌，让我想去了解，去探索。

我想了很久，一直想不通为什么伍佰的这首歌叫‘挪威的森林’。我猜，他也许是从同名书籍取得灵感吧。究竟这首歌和那本书有没有关联？我在图书馆reserve了一本，快要拿到了。大家祝我好运。希望能和大家分享书中的内容。

这两首歌有几个共同点。它们除了是以书名作为歌名，唱歌的人，都是自己写给自己唱。一个人包办词、曲、遍和唱的部分。伍佰比较幸运，他除了有一个band, 也红到了现在。黄舒骏就比较衰，怀才不遇，叫好不叫座。”

〈挪威的森林〉词/原唱：吴俊霖（伍佰）

让我将你心儿摘下
试著将它慢慢溶化
看我在你心中是否仍完美无瑕

是否依然为我丝丝牵挂
依然爱我无法自拔
心中是否有我未曾到过的地方啊？

那里湖面总是澄清
那里空气充满宁静
雪白明月照在大地
藏著你不愿提起的回忆（藏著你最深处的秘密）

你说真心总是可以从头
真爱总是可以长久
为何你的眼神还有孤独时的落寞
是否我只是你一种寄托
填满你感情的缺口
心中那片森林何时能让我停留

或许我不该问
让你平静的心再起涟漪
只是爱你的心超出了界线
我想拥有你所有一切
应该是我不该问不该让你再将往事重提
只是心中枷锁
该如何才能解脱？

子曰

2005-03-29T18:06:00.000+08:00

〈子曰〉词:武雄阿亮原唱：阿亮

有了车子想要房子有了妻子想要马子
有了银子想要位子有了位子拿了架子
搞了圈子使了性子铁了胆子忘了老子
什么原因谁人会知？

先管面子再管里子先填肚子再补脑子
先端架子再a银子先兜圈子再想点子
先捅篓子再找路子先出乱子再闪条子
这款人生敢有未来？

搞栋房子搞一辈子停个车子一推单子
挑个担子叫破嗓子凡夫俗子没有法子
卷起袖子迈开步子半个傻子一条汉子
何必怨叹这个时代？

夜的诗人：“ 搬回家后，有更多机会听一听Class 95 的早班广播。Glenn Ong 和 FD 在讨论男人秃头的话题。本来只是在讨论一些人去寻医的经历，后来就有一位听众传了一个短讯，简意如下； ‘Bald man can be very sexy as well. Who says man needs a good head of hair to be attractive？’ Glenn Ong 就铺上一句，说：‘Not all women are shallow. And those women who mind about how much you have on top of your head, is not worth your love, guys.’ 大盖的意识是这样啦。

其实今天想要讨论的是，男人的交通工具和恋爱的关系。只是想利用 Glenn Ong 所谓的 ‘shallow’和阿亮的歌来借题发挥。我无意批评身边的朋友，或者是新加坡的女生 in general. I believe there are many kinds of people. And be it man or woman, Singaporean or not, anybody can be shallow.

-朋友Ａ的前男友骑单车。在追求的过程，当然会载她来、载她去。分手后，除了人以外，她也很想念被载来回进出校园吃饭的感觉。听说新男友有开车。

-朋友Ｂ的男友和海军出海去，一去就２个月。有一天他播电回来，朋友Ｂ说好想念他。男友问她，你是想我，还是想念被我载？朋友Ｂ告诉我，‘老实说，我也很想念被载的感觉。最近整天搭ｃａｂ，很贵ｌｅｈ’．　

ＢＣ最buay tahan这种事情。他认为全新加坡的女人都是肤浅的。他认为只要你有车、有钱，她们就会投怀送抱。我是觉得啦，世界上就是有这样的人ｓｐｏｉｌ　ｍａｒｋｅｔ。全世界的人这么多，当然会有各种各样的人。可能‘拜金妇’比较会凸显自己以求出众，才能赚得到‘金龟胥’的青睐。Ｓｉｇｈ　．．．　男方有车是巧合？方便？还是只不过是小心眼在妒嫉罢了？

-朋友Ｃ养车也有一下子了。Ｅｄ问他，有没有女朋友，朋友Ｃ说没有。Ed summed it all up by saying this, and I quote, "你买车不拿来追ｚａｂｏｒ，ｔｈｅｎ你买车来 kam l*n?"　　

最后，我要说，如果要我一辈子搭公共交通来换取实现我环游世界的梦想，我会宁愿搭一辈子的公车．如果给我一辆车，才能让我追到我心仪的女生，我会很甘愿地放弃她．”

Zombie

2005-03-27T19:00:00.000+08:00

Zombie by Cranberries

Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken.
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it's not me, it's not my family.
In your head, in your head they are fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are crying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, dou, dou, dou, dou, dou...

Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over.
When the violence causes silence,
We must be mistaken.

It's the same old theme since 1916.
In your head, in your head they're still fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are dying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, hey, oh, ya, ya-a...

夜的诗人：“ On a Easter Sunday many years ago in Ireland, in a bid towards a independent state from the United Kingdom, a armed conflict broke out between the English and the Irish. On a day where many other people celebrated new found hope and new meaning to living, Ireland will always remember it as the day they will dread. Today, the original focus of the civil strife has been lost and now the Protestants are shooting the Catholics and the Catholics are bombing the Protestants. School children cannot go to school without army escort, religious processions cannot be completed without some sort of blood shed in between. I didn't make this all up, it is all in the news. Just that they aren't newsworthy anymore, since it has been ongoing all these while.

Maybe for that reason, Irish bands have been very outstanding in terms of their music and their lyrics. For example, U2, Cranberries, The Corrs .. etc. eh ... Westlife doesn't count, they are a boy band. I think rock bands give the impression they are anarchist, trouble makers and anti-establishment .. blah blah blah. But then I think they are the sharpest critics of the so called civilized 'establishments' that can use their powers to proclaim war on one another. Such establishments give more troubles than anything they are created to do.

Can peace only be obtained by starting more violence?

I like this song at first for its rhythm and melody. But it was so melancholic, and the MTV feels so freakish. After all, this is the 'nab*h' song many will remember it for. I began liking this song again when I was in the army, when I looked closer at it's lyrics and understood what it is about. I thought of this song immediately when I heard of the Bali bombing.

I will gladly trade my health for world peace.”

万人迷

2005-03-27T00:35:00.000+08:00

〈万人迷〉词:林夕原唱：达明一派

容我到你家中看看遥吻你的睡床
然後再看桌椅如何摆放
无数次小心穿与戴无数对新皮鞋
期待与你逛三十步的街
待我好待我好让我到你家找你
然後再去与他们在一起
是你好是你好
但你听惯这赞美嫌太俗气
天天等待万人迷

何日我会有幸入围
翻天覆地万人迷
难道这次会给我一点空位，music

随意叫四周起哄谁叫你这样红
能被看中那虚荣谁不懂
待我好待我好就约我看一出戏
然後再去与他们在一起
共你好共你好
就算我有这勇气还欠邭
天天等待万人迷

何日会当我是话题
一举一动万人迷
从未对我看仔细
天天等待万人迷
何日我会有幸入围
翻天覆地万人迷
从未半次给我一点空位，music

夜的诗人：“如果你不够富有，或者不够帅、不够高，又遍遍爱上了一个万人迷的话，那你完蛋了。人生下来有几样东西是没得选，没得换的；父母，家人，种族，肤色和身高。胸部不够大可以垫、可以去隆，鼻子不够挺可以整，单眼皮可以去割。不够高就很头痛了。

女生希望另一半比自己高，差不多是天经地义的事。毕竟 ‘女人的胸前是男人的家，男人的肩膀是女人的床’ （截自黄舒骏的歌：男女之间）。原来说什么，高矮不是距离只是一种敷衍的鼓励罢了。还记得有某家啤酒公司的广告词有说过，‘如果必有人成功，为何不是你？’。然后随之出现的画面是一个矮冬瓜和比他高一个头的名模穿着礼服，开开心心结婚去。哪，这个广告的意识简单、鲜明；你比她矮，机会就很渺茫了。

根据夜的诗人的个人经验，还是应该对万人迷敬而远之比较好。不过‘贱’字刻在骨里面，很多事情都没办法避免了。

今日一见：我坐在cafe的一角，美女1坐在cafe的另一角，当然瞄了她好几眼。过了一下子，穿着JC校服的美女2，手里捧着一束花，坐在两角的中间。当然，也瞄了她好几眼。美女1没两下子，就拿出 lip gloss 来涂，衣服整理整理一下。本来赖着和友人聊天，现在挺起胸，坐正起来。原来我的眼神说给予的赞赏，也是有人竞争的。感觉一个人，叉4次； ‘爽’ ”

Stay

2005-03-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

〈Stay〉 By: Lisa Loeb & Nine Stories

You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.

And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.

So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, well, this is not that;
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.

And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I miss you.
You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just
scared to lose.

And you say, "Stay."
And you say I only hear what I want to.

夜的诗人：“ To address falling readership, and to cater to English speaking and reading demograph, the blog owner has decided to release one more set of English song lyrics.

Lisa Loeb has since became the one-hit-wonder I best remembered with this song of hers. She released her one and only single, as far back as when I was 12, which I figure was in the year 1994 or 1995. This song can also be found in the OST of the movie 'Reality Bites' starring Winona Ryder, Ethan Hawke, Ben Stiller as well as a previously relatively unknown, Renee Zellweger.

I never got the chance to see the movie, though. But this song garnered my interest for this movie that included it in its OST. I tried to catch its premiere on tv when they showed it on Channel 5 but fate dictates that I would miss it.

I never got to finish playing this song on my trusty Yamaha F330. There were so many special chords inside which I never figured out what they were. Those found online were either not very useful, inaccurate, or were abstract descriptions only accomplished musicians could decipher.

I never understood who or what the 'Nine Stories' in her name 'Lisa Loeb and the Nine Stories' refered to. Did it mean nine levels in a building, or did it mean nine pieces of written fiction? Was it a band? Or was it just Lisa Loeb?

But I know, I like this song very much. If you ever read to this very spot, consider reading the lyrics again. See how it all adds up and then end off.

Trivia: Ben Stiller was told he could include Lisa Loeb's "Stay" on the soundtrack only if he agreed to put "Baby, I Love Your Way" (remade by Big Mountain) on the soundtrack as well.”

夜の诗人

On my recent life

I am a groupie!!

Beary like me

Loser

Guocai's Thai Wedding

What do you live for?

Career Guidance for the Singaporean Undergraduate

红眼症

The RING

瓶颈

Built on what?

顺理成章

Moving house

Economics is

Don't say never

'P-O-W-E-R !!!!'

7 Habits of Highly Effective Undergrads

My life, so far

Employment woes

I miss Beijing

Wonderwall

想她

Why Do I give my seats up for the elderly?

它终于得走了, 她也不等了

叫我第一名

Long time never been here

Everytime You Go Away

爱是你眼里的一首情歌

爱情的模样

其实你不懂我的心

合影留念

阴天

What Are You Doing New Year's Eve?

敲敲我的头

圣诞夜惊魂

笨小孩

圣诞结

Last Christmas

燕尾蝶

温柔

蝴蝶

越吻越伤心

旅行的意义

亲亲我的宝贝

胆小鬼

恋爱症候群

Lady Rain

我还记得

疯狂世界

最快乐那一年

旧爱还是最美

我恨我爱你

心痛

计较

半斤八两

The Birthday Song

一百萬

泪该停 梦该醒

很想你

坐在巷口的那对男女

迷你裙

终结孤单

恒星的恒心

追

男人哭吧不是罪

凡人歌

大雨

猜心

她来听我的演唱会

下辈子别再做女人

花蝴蝶

失眠夜

你快乐所以我快乐

你喜欢的会有几个

王八蛋

勇气

我是有钱人

Something stupid

没有烟抽的日子

泪该停梦该醒

比我幸福，我是幸福的

普通朋友，天亮以后说分手